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读懂死亡,理解活着|TED 演讲

读懂死亡,理解活着|TED 演讲

读懂死亡,理解活着|TED 演讲

发布于 2026-09-08 · 时长 17:14

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0:04It was the spring of 2011,是2011年的春天,我们...
0:07and as they like to say in commencement speeches,他们喜欢在开始演讲中说,
0:10I was getting ready to enter the real world.我准备进入现实世界
0:14I had recently graduated from college我刚刚从大学毕业
0:17and moved to Paris to start my first job.然后搬到巴黎开始我的第一个工作。
0:20My dream was to become a war correspondent,我梦想成为一名战争记者,
0:24but the real world that I found但真实的世界,我发现
0:26took me into a really different kind of conflict zone.把我带到了一个完全不同的冲突地区
0:32At 22 years old,22岁
0:34I was diagnosed with leukemia.我被诊断患有白血病
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1It was the spring of 2011,是2011年的春天,我们...
2and as they like to say in commencement speeches,他们喜欢在开始演讲中说,
3I was getting ready to enter the real world.我准备进入现实世界
4I had recently graduated from college我刚刚从大学毕业
5and moved to Paris to start my first job.然后搬到巴黎开始我的第一个工作。
6My dream was to become a war correspondent,我梦想成为一名战争记者,
7but the real world that I found但真实的世界,我发现
8took me into a really different kind of conflict zone.把我带到了一个完全不同的冲突地区
9At 22 years old,22岁
10I was diagnosed with leukemia.我被诊断患有白血病
11The doctors told me and my parents point blank医生告诉我和我爸妈是空的
12that I had about a 35 percent chance of long-term survival.我拥有35%的长期生存机会。
13I couldn't wrap my head around what that prognosis meant,我无法把头绕在预后的意义上
14but I understood that the reality但我明白现实
15and the life I'd imagined for myself had shattered.我想象中的生活已经崩溃了
16Overnight, I lost my job, my apartment, my independence,一夜之间,我失去了工作,我的公寓,我的独立,
17and I became patient number 5624.我成了5624号病人
18Over the next four years of chemo, a clinical trial在接下来的四年化疗中,一个临床试验
19and a bone marrow transplant,还有骨髓移植
20the hospital became my home,医院变成了我的家
21my bed, the place I lived 24-7.我的床,我住的地方24 -7。
22Since it was unlikely that I'd ever get better,我不可能好起来
23I had to accept my new reality.我不得不接受我的新现实
24And I adapted.我适应了
25I became fluent in medicalese,我学会了医学
26made friends with a group of other young cancer patients,跟一群年轻的癌症患者交了朋友
27built a vast collection of neon wigs造了一大堆霓虹假发
28and learned to use my rolling IV pole as a skateboard.并学会了用我滚动的IV杆作为滑板.
29I even achieved my dream of becoming a war correspondent,我甚至实现了成为战争记者的梦想
30although not in the way I'd expected.虽然没有达到我的预期
31It started with a blog reporting from the front lines of my hospital bed,从我医院床头条的博客开始
32and it morphed into a column I wrote for the New York Times它变成了我为《纽约时报》写的专栏
33called, Life Interrupted.电话,生活中断。
34But ...不过...
35Thank you.谢谢
36But above all else, my focus was on surviving.但最重要的是,我专注于生存。
37And, spoiler alert ...还有,破坏者警报...
38(*Laughter*)(* 笑声*)
39I did survive, yeah.我确实活了下来
40(*Applause*)(*鼓掌*)
41Thanks to an army of supportive humans,多亏了一支支持人类的军队
42I'm not just still here, I am cured of my cancer.我不只是还在这里, 我治愈了我的癌症。
43So when you go through a traumatic experience like this,所以当你经历这样的痛苦经历时
44people treat you differently.人们对你不同
45They start telling you how much of an inspiration you are.他们开始告诉你你有多有灵感
46They say you're a warrior.他们说你是战士
47They call you a hero,他们叫你英雄
48someone who's lived the mythical hero's journey,一个活在神话英雄之旅的人
49who's endured impossible trials谁忍受了不可能的考验
50and, against the odds, lived to tell the tale.却活下来说出这个故事
51We're turning better and braver for what you've been through.我们为你所经历的 变得更加勇敢
52And this definitely lines up with my experience.这绝对是我的经验。
53Cancer totally transformed my life.癌症完全改变了我的生活。
54I left the hospital knowing exactly who I was我离开医院时知道自己是谁
55and what I wanted to do in the world.和我想在世界上做什么。
56And now, every day, as the sun rises,现在,每天,随着太阳升起,
57I drink a big glass of celery juice,我喝一大杯芹菜汁,
58and I follow this up with 90 minutes of yoga.我接着用90分钟的瑜伽
59Then I write down 50 things I'm grateful for然后我写下五十件我很感激的事
60onto a scroll of paper that I fold into an origami crane折叠成折纸鹤的纸卷
61and send sailing out my window.并派船离开我的窗户。
62Are you seriously believing any of this?你真的相信这些吗?
63(*Laughter*)(* 笑声*)
64I don't do any of these things.我不做这些事情。
65I hate yoga, and I have no idea how to fold an origami crane.我讨厌瑜伽 我不知道怎么折叠折纸鹤
66(*Laughter*)(* 笑声*)
67The truth is that, for me,事实上,对我来说,
68the hardest part of my cancer experience我癌症经历中最难的部分
69began once the cancer was gone.癌症消失后就开始了
70That heroic journey of the survivor we see in movies我们在电影里看到的幸存者的英勇旅程
71看着Instagram的演出
72it's a myth.这是一个神话。
73It isn't just untrue, it's dangerous,不仅不真实,还很危险
74because it erases the very real challenges of recovery.因为它消除了复苏的真正挑战。
75Now, don't get me wrong,别误会我
76I'm incredibly grateful to be alive,我非常感激能活着
77and I'm painfully aware that this struggle is a privilege我痛苦地意识到这场斗争是一种特权
78that many don't get to experience.很多人没经验
79But it's important that I tell you what this projection of heroism但我必须告诉你 这个英雄主义的投影
80and expectation of constant gratitude does to people who are trying to recover,希望不断的感谢 对那些试图恢复的人,
81because being cured is not where the work of healing ends.因为被治愈不是治愈的终点
82It's where it begins.始发之处.
83I'll never forget the day I was discharged from the hospital,我永远不会忘记我出院那天
84finally done with treatment.终于完成了治疗。
85Those four years of chemo这四年的化疗
86had taken a toll on my relationship with my longtime boyfriend,我和我的男朋友的关系受到了打击
87and he'd recently moved out.他最近搬了出来
88And when I walked into my apartment, it was quiet.当我走进我的公寓, 它很安静。
89Eerily so.爱丽丝
90The person I wanted to call in this moment,此刻我想打电话给的人
91the person who I knew would understand everything,我认识的人会理解一切
92was my friend Melissa.是我的朋友梅丽莎。
93She was a fellow cancer patient,她是癌症患者的同伴,
94but she had died three weeks earlier.但是她三周前就去世了
95As I stood there in the doorway of my apartment,当我站在我公寓门口时
96I wanted to cry,我本来想哭
97but I was too tired to cry.但我太累了 哭不出来。
98The adrenaline was gone.肾上腺素不见了
99It felt as if the inner scaffolding that had held me together感觉好像内在的脚手架 曾经把我拉在一起
100since my diagnosis had suddenly crumbled.因为我的诊断突然崩溃了
101I had spent the past 1,500 days working tirelessly我花了1500天 不懈地工作
102to achieve one goal,实现一个目标,
103to survive.为了生存
104And now that I'd done so,现在我这么做了
105I realized I had absolutely no idea how to live.我意识到我完全不知道如何生活。
106On paper, of course, I was better.在纸上,当然,我更好。
107I didn't have leukemia.我没有白血病
108My blood counts were back to normal,我的血数恢复正常了
109and the disability checks soon stopped coming.残疾检查很快就停止了
110To the outside world,对外界来说,
111I clearly didn't belong in the kingdom of the sick anymore.我显然不再属于病人的王国了
112But in reality, I never felt further from being well.但实际上,我从来没有感觉 更健康。
113All that chemo had taken a permanent physical toll on my body.所有的化疗都对我的身体造成了永久性的身体伤害。
114I wondered, what kind of job can I hold我在想,我能做什么样的工作
115when I need to nap for four hours in the middle of the day,当我需要午睡四个小时时
116when my misfiring immune system当我的免疫系统失火时
117still sends me to the ER on a regular basis?仍然定期派我去急诊室吗?
118And then there were the invisible psychological imprints然后出现了无形的心理印记
119my illness had left behind.我的疾病已经留下。
120The fears of relapse,害怕复发,
121the unprocessed grief,未处理的悲伤,
122the demons of PTSD that descended upon me for days,数日降临我的创伤后精神紧张症恶魔
123sometimes weeks.有时候是几周
124See, we talk about reentry in the context of war and incarceration,你看,我们谈论 重返战争和监禁,
125but we don't talk about it as much in the context of other kinds但是我们不是在其他场合谈论它
126of traumatic experiences, like an illness.创伤经历,像疾病。
127Because no one had warned me of the challenges of reentry,因为没有人警告我 重返的挑战,
128I thought something must be wrong with me.我以为我一定有问题
129I felt ashamed.我感到羞耻。
130And with great guilt, I kept reminding myself带着极大的愧疚 我不断提醒自己
131of how lucky I was to be alive at all,幸好我还活着
132when so many people like my friend Melissa were not.当这么多人 像我的朋友梅丽莎不是。
133But on most days, I woke up feeling so sad and lost,但大多数时候,我醒来 感觉如此悲伤和迷失,
134I could barely breathe.我几乎无法呼吸。
135Sometimes I even fantasized about getting sick again.有时我甚至幻想着再次生病
136And let me tell you, there are so many better things to fantasize about让我告诉你,有这么多更好的事情 幻想
137when you're in your 20s and recently single.当你在你的20多岁和最近的单身。
138But I miss the hospital's ecosystem.但我想念医院的生态系统。
139Like me, everyone in there was broken.像我一样 里面的每个人都被打破了
140But out here, among the living, I felt like an imposter,但是,在这里,在活着的人中, 我觉得像一个冒牌货,
141overwhelmed and unable to function.不堪重负,无法运作 。
142I also miss the sense of clarity I'd felt at my sickest.我也怀念我最恶心时的清晰感.
143Staring your mortality straight in the eye has a way of simplifying things,直视你的死亡 有一种简化的方法,
144of rerouting your focus to what really matters.把注意力转移到真正重要的方面
145And when I was sick, I vowed that if I survived,当我病了,我发誓 如果我活下来,
146it had to be for something.一定是为了什么
147It had to be to live a good life, an adventurous life,必须要过上美好的生活 冒险的生活
148a meaningful one.一个有意义的。
149But the question, once I was cured, became, how?但问题,一旦我痊愈,就变成,如何?
150I was 27 years old,当时我27岁,
151with no job, no partner, no structure.没有工作 没有搭档 没有结构
152And this time, I didn't have treatment protocols这次我没有治疗协议
153or discharge instructions to help guide my way forward.或执行指示 帮助引导我的前进方向。
154But what I did have was an inbox full of internet messages from strangers.但我做的是一个信箱 充满了来自陌生人的互联网信息。
155Over the years, people from all over the world had read my column,这些年来,来自世界各地的人 读了我的专栏,
156and they'd responded with letters, comments and emails.他们用信件、评论和电子邮件回复
157It was a mix, as is often the case for writers.它是一个混合体,对作家来说往往是这样。
158I got a lot of unsolicited advice我有很多不请自来的建议
159about how to cure my cancer with things like essential oils.如何用必需的油来治愈我的癌症
160I got some questions about my bra size,我有一些关于我的胸罩尺寸的问题,
161but mostly I heard from people但大多数时候我听到人们说
162who, in their own different way, understood what it was that I was going through.他们以不同的方式 理解我所经历的一切
163I heard from a teenage girl in Florida,我从佛罗里达州的一个少女那里听说
164who, like me, was coming out of chemo,和我一样,是化疗出来的
165and wrote me a message composed largely of emojis.并给我写了一条信息 主要由情感组成
166I heard from a retired art history professor in Ohio named Howard,俄亥俄州一个退休的艺术史教授 名叫霍华德
167who'd spent most of his life struggling with a mysterious,他一生中大部分时间都在和一个神秘人物挣扎
168debilitating health condition that he'd had from the time he was a young man.他从小就身体状况不好
169I heard from an inmate on death row in Texas我从德克萨斯州死刑犯那里听说的
170by the name of Little GQ,以小GQ的名字命名,
171short for Gangster Quinn.黑帮奎恩的简称
172He'd never been sick a day in his life.他从没有生病过
173He does a thousand push-ups to start off each morning,他每天早上做一千次俯卧撑
174but he related to what I described in one column as my incanceration但他提到我在一栏中描述的 即我的进化
175and to the experience of being confined to a tiny fluorescent room.和被限制在一个微小的荧光室的经验。
176I know that our situations are different, he wrote to me,我知道我们的情况不一样 他写信给我
177but the threat of death lurks in both of our shadows.但死亡威胁潜伏在我们两个阴影中
178In those lonely first weeks and months of my recovery,在我康复的头几周和几个月里
179these strangers and their words became lifelines,这些陌生人和他们的话成为生命线
180dispatches from people of so many different backgrounds有这么多不同背景的人的派遣
181with so many different experiences,有这么多不同的经验,
182all showing me the same thing.都给我看一样的东西
183You can be held hostage by the worst thing that's ever happened to you你可以被最糟糕的事情牵制住
184and allow it to hijack your remaining days,并允许它劫持你的余生,
185or you can find a way forward.或者你可以找到一条前进的道路。
186I knew I needed to make some kind of change.我知道我需要做一些改变。
187I wanted to be in motion again,我想再次行动,
188to figure out how to unstuck myself and to get back out into the world.想办法解开自己 回到世界
189And so I decided to go on a real journey,所以我决定踏上真正的旅程
190not the bullshit cancer one不是那个狗屁癌症
191or the mythical hero's journey that everyone thought I should be on,或神话英雄的旅程 每个人都认为我应该去,
192but a real pack-your-bags kind of journey.但真正的包包 你的包那种旅程。
193I put everything I owned into storage,我把我所有的东西都放进去了
194rented out my apartment,租了我的公寓,
195borrowed a car借了辆车
196and talked a very dear but somewhat smelly friend into joining me.和一个非常亲切但有点臭的朋友谈了加入我
197Together, my dog Oscar and I embarked on a 15,000-mile road trip我和我的狗奥斯卡一起踏上了15000英里的路程
198around the United States.在美国周围
199Along the way, we visited some of those strangers who'd written to me.一路走来,我们拜访了一些陌生人 谁给我写信。
200I needed their advice also to say to them,我还需要他们的建议 告诉他们,
201thank you.谢谢
202I went to Ohio and stayed with Howard, the retired professor.我去俄亥俄州 和退休教授霍华德在一起
203When you've suffered a loss or a trauma,当你遭受损失或创伤时
204the impulse can be to guard your heart.冲动可能是保护你的心脏。
205But Howard urged me to open myself up to uncertainty,但霍华德催促我开放自己 对于不确定,
206to the possibilities of new love, new loss.新爱,新损失的可能性。
207Howard will never be cured of illness.霍华德永远无法治愈疾病.
208And as a young man, he had no way of predicting how long he'd live,作为一个年轻人 他无法预测他能活多久
209but that didn't stop him from getting married.但这并不阻止他结婚。
210Howard has grandkids now霍华德现在有孙子了
211and takes weekly ballroom dancing lessons with his wife.每周和他的妻子一起上舞厅舞蹈课
212When I visited them,当我拜访他们时,
213they'd recently celebrated their 50th anniversary.他们最近庆祝了50周年
214In his letter to me, he'd written,他在给我的信中写道
215meaning is not found in the material realm.在物质领域没有意义。
216It's not in dinner, jazz, cocktails or conversation.它不在晚餐,爵士乐,鸡尾酒或对话中.
217Meaning is what's left when everything else is stripped away.意思是当其他东西被剥光时 剩下的是什么
218I went to Texas and I visited little GQ on death row.我去了德克萨斯,我拜访了死囚牢房的小GQ.
219He asked me what I did to pass all that time I'd spent in a hospital room.他问我做了些什么 来度过我在医院里度过的时间
220When I told him I got really, really good at Scrabble,我告诉他我擅长拼字
221he said, me too,他说,我也
222and explained how even though he spends most of his days并解释他如何度过他的大部分时间
223in solitary confinement,单独监禁,
224he and his neighboring prisoners make board games out of paper他和邻居的囚犯用纸做棋盘游戏
225and call out their plays through their meal slots.并通过他们的餐桌喊出他们的戏
226A testament to the incredible tenacity of the human spirit证明人类精神的坚韧
227and our ability to adapt with creativity.以及我们以创造力适应的能力。
228And my last stop was in Florida我最后一站是在佛罗里达
229to see that teenage girl who'd sent me all those emojis.看到那个少女 谁送我所有的情感。
230Her name is Unique, which is perfect,她的名字是独一无二,这是完美的,
231because she's the most luminous, curious person I've ever met.因为她是我见过最光亮,最好奇的人
232I asked her what she wants to do next, and she said,我问她接下来想做什么 她说
233I want to go to college and travel我想上大学旅行
234and eat weird foods like octopus that I've never tasted before吃怪异的食物 像章鱼 我从来没有尝过
235and come visit you in New York and go camping,来纽约拜访你,去露营,
236but I'm scared of bugs, but I still want to go camping.但我害怕虫子 但我还是想去露营
237I was in awe of her,我为她感到敬畏
238that she could be so optimistic and so full of plans for the future,她可以如此乐观 充满未来计划
239given everything she'd been through.她经历的一切
240But as Unique showed me,但正如独家告诉我,
241it is far more radical and dangerous to have hope有了希望就更加激进和危险
242than to live hemmed in by fear.而不是生活在恐惧之中
243But the most important thing I learned on that road trip但我在路上学到的最重要的东西
244is that the divide between the thick and the well,谓厚井之分,
245it doesn't exist.它不存在。
246The border is porous.边界漏洞百出。
247As we live longer and longer,当我们活得越来越长
248surviving illnesses and injuries that would have killed our grandparents,幸存的疾病和伤害 会杀死我们的祖父母,
249even our parents,甚至我们的父母,
250the vast majority of us will travel back and forth between these realms,我们绝大多数人会往返于这些王国之间,
251spending much of our lives somewhere between the two.我们大部分时间都花在两者之间
252These are the terms of our existence.这些是我们生存的条件。
253Now, I wish I could say that since coming home from my road trip,现在,我希望我可以说, 自从回家 我的路程,
254I feel fully healed.我感觉完全痊愈了。
255I don't.我没有。
256But once I stopped expecting myself to return to the person I'd been pre-diagnosis,但一旦我不再期待自己回到我诊断前的人身边
257once I learned to accept my body and its limitations,当我学会接受我的身体 和它的限制
258I actually did start to feel better.我确实开始感觉好多了。
259And in the end, I think that's the trick,最终,我想这就是诡计,
260to stop seeing our health as binary不再把我们的健康视为二进制
261between thick and healthy, well and unwell,厚而健康,善而不善,
262whole and broken,完全断裂,
263to stop thinking that there's some beautiful, perfect state of wellness不再认为 有一些美丽的,完美的状态
264to strive for努力争取
265and to quit living in a state of constant dissatisfaction不再生活在持续不满的状态
266until we reach it.直到我们到达它。
267Every single one of us will have our life interrupted,我们每个人的生活都会中断
268whether it's by the ripcord of a diagnosis是否通过诊断
269or some other kind of heartbreak or trauma that brings us to the floor.或者是其它的心碎或创伤 把我们带到地上
270We need to find ways to live in the in-between place,我们需要找到在中间生活的方法,
271managing whatever body and mind we currently have.管理我们目前的身心
272Sometimes all it takes is the ingenuity of a handmade game of Scrabble,有时它需要的只是手制的拼字游戏的智慧,
273or finding that stripped-down kind of meaning in the love of family或发现 剥离 那种意义 在爱家庭
274and a night on the ballroom dance floor,和舞厅舞池的一夜
275or that radical, dangerous hope或者那个激进的,危险的希望
276that I'm guessing will someday lead a teenage girl terrified of bugs我猜有一天会引领一个怕虫子的少女
277to go camping.去露营。
278If you're able to do that,如果你能做到这一点,
279then you've taken the real hero's journey.那你就踏上了真正的英雄之旅
280You've achieved what it means to actually be well,你已经实现了真正的好意
281which is to stay alive in the messiest, richest, most whole sense.也就是在最烂 最富有 最完整的意义上活着
282Thank you.谢谢
283That's all I've got.唯见此.
284Thank you.谢谢
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