【全英 Vlog 2】The Urge to Transfo
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| P1 | 【全英 Vlog 2】The Urge to Transfo | 31:24 |
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P1 · 【全英 Vlog 2】The Urge to Transform｜蜕变的渴望，反复思考本身就是成长 p01 the urge to transform 双语 (P1)
【全英 Vlog 2】The Urge to Transform｜蜕变的渴望，反复思考本身就是成长 p01 the urge to transform 双语 (P1)
发布于 2026-09-11 · 时长 31:24字幕摘录
| 时间 | 英文 | 中文 |
|---|---|---|
| 0:00 | It's taken me years to say goodbye to certain things that I've outgrown. | 我花了好几年时间来告别一些我成长不足的东西. |
| 0:04 | I can see now that | 我现在明白了 |
| 0:06 | I needed every single one of those dunes to get to this one, to be able to make this leap, | 我需要这些沙丘中的每一个 到达这个, 能够实现这个飞跃, |
| 0:12 | and to transform in this way. | 并以此方式转变。 |
| 0:14 | What we're working towards, we have to believe that any | 我们正在努力的, 我们必须相信任何 |
| 0:17 | bit of effort we put into that mentally, physically, every action is building up to something, | 我们在精神上 身体上 付出了很大努力 每一次行动都在有所作为 |
| 0:23 | accepting the fact that transformation is taking place, even whenever we can't pick up on it, | 接受转变正在发生的事实 即使我们无法恢复 |
| 0:29 | even whenever we're coming to the same conclusions, and we feel like we haven't made progress, | 即使我们得出相同的结论 我们觉得我们没有取得进展 |
| 0:33 | that moment of awareness that you've come to the same conclusion is progress. | 了解你得出同样结论的那一刻 就是进步 |
| 0:38 | Realizing that | 认识到这一点 |
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| 序号 | 英文 | 中文 |
|---|---|---|
| 1 | It's taken me years to say goodbye to certain things that I've outgrown. | 我花了好几年时间来告别一些我成长不足的东西. |
| 2 | I can see now that | 我现在明白了 |
| 3 | I needed every single one of those dunes to get to this one, to be able to make this leap, | 我需要这些沙丘中的每一个 到达这个, 能够实现这个飞跃, |
| 4 | and to transform in this way. | 并以此方式转变。 |
| 5 | What we're working towards, we have to believe that any | 我们正在努力的, 我们必须相信任何 |
| 6 | bit of effort we put into that mentally, physically, every action is building up to something, | 我们在精神上 身体上 付出了很大努力 每一次行动都在有所作为 |
| 7 | accepting the fact that transformation is taking place, even whenever we can't pick up on it, | 接受转变正在发生的事实 即使我们无法恢复 |
| 8 | even whenever we're coming to the same conclusions, and we feel like we haven't made progress, | 即使我们得出相同的结论 我们觉得我们没有取得进展 |
| 9 | that moment of awareness that you've come to the same conclusion is progress. | 了解你得出同样结论的那一刻 就是进步 |
| 10 | Realizing that | 认识到这一点 |
| 11 | you're unhappy with something, even if it takes multiple times, is pushing you to transform. | 你对某件事情不高兴, 即使它需要多次, 正在推动你转变。 |
| 12 | Sometimes we have to be reminded of why we're doing something over and over again to get enough | 有时我们不得不被提醒 为什么我们做一些事情 反复得到足够的 |
| 13 | courage to do it. | 有勇气这样做。 |
| 14 | I've felt a lack of productivity, or like I'm being selfish with my time, but | 我感到自己缺乏生产力, 或者像我自私的时间,但 |
| 15 | I know just based on the things that I'm saying goodbye to, and the decisions that I've made, | 我知道只是基于我告别的事情, 和我所做的决定, |
| 16 | that I need some time to heal, to breathe, to transform, and become a new version of myself | 我需要一些时间来治愈 呼吸 转变 成为我的新版本 |
| 17 | that I haven't met yet. | 我还没见过面 |
| 18 | Hi everybody, welcome to my channel, welcome to this episode of Flowering | 大家好 欢迎光临我的频道 欢迎光临这集"花儿" |
| 19 | Philosophies. | 哲学家. |
| 20 | My name is Inaya, and I come to you during the middle of June. | 我叫伊纳亚,六月中旬来找你 |
| 21 | You may be seeing this | 你可能会看到这个 |
| 22 | or in the beginning of July. | 或七月初时. |
| 23 | Regardless, it's summertime, and it is a warm day today. | 不管怎么说 现在是夏天 今天是温暖的一天 |
| 24 | I just | и琌 |
| 25 | turned the air conditioning off so that I could speak to you in a quiet setting, and you may see | 关掉空调 这样我就能在安静的环境下和你说话了 你可能会看到 |
| 26 | me perspiring a little bit, and I apologize for that, but these are the hot summer days that we're | 我有点迷惑,我为此道歉, 但这是炎热的夏天,我们是 |
| 27 | working with. | 与我们合作。 |
| 28 | The middle of June has always stood as a point of contemplation for me. | 六月中常为我观想. |
| 29 | I don't know | 我不知道,你觉得呢? |
| 30 | if it marks literally the middle of the year. | 如果这标志着年中。 |
| 31 | The summertime, the warm weather, brings certain | 夏天的天气,温暖的天气, 带来了一定的 |
| 32 | things to light, but for the past, I want to say decade of my life, since I was a young teenager, | 但对于过去,我想说 我生命的十年,因为我是一个年轻的青少年, |
| 33 | I've come to similar conclusions every single summer about maybe what it is that I want for my | 我每个夏天都得出类似的结论 说不定我想要的是什么 |
| 34 | life, or the habits, or people, or relationships, or versions of myself that I'm looking to shed. | 生活,或习惯,或人,或关系, 或我所期望的自我的版本。 |
| 35 | The summer and June, it wasn't all inherently negative, but I did notice that I would go through | 夏天和六月, 并不是所有固有的负面, 但我确实注意到,我会经历 |
| 36 | some of these tumultuous realizations, or feel like I'm coming to the same conclusions again and | 或感觉我再次得出同样的结论 |
| 37 | at this time of year. | 在这个时候。 |
| 38 | I don't know if you want to call it seasonal depression, or what, maybe you | 我不知道,如果你想称之为季节性抑郁, 或者什么,也许你 |
| 39 | guys feel this way in the winter, in the fall, or there was a certain instance or time of year that | 男人在冬天,秋天, 或有一个特定的事例或时间一年 |
| 40 | you seem to reflect on things, but for me it always seems to hit in the middle of June. | 你似乎在思考事情, 但对我来说,它总是 似乎在六月中旬。 |
| 41 | There's very | 有很强的 |
| 42 | specific flora and fauna that reveals itself in the middle of June. | 6月中暴露自己的具体动植物群。 |
| 43 | There are crepe myrtle trees | 这里有三叶树 |
| 44 | that are usually very pink and white and beautiful to see during this time, and there are lots of | 通常粉红色 白色 美丽的 在此期间,有很多 |
| 45 | Barbados flowers everywhere with their big orange blooms. | 巴巴多斯花随处可见 它们的大橘子花。 |
| 46 | It's beautiful, the rain, the storms, | 美丽,雨,风暴, |
| 47 | the heat, the summer. | 热,暑. |
| 48 | The nature during this time almost signifies that it's time for me to reflect, | 这期间的本性 几乎意味着我该反省了 |
| 49 | or brings me to that point of contemplation in the summer. | 或让我想到夏天的考虑点 |
| 50 | It's like I know it's that time | 好像我知道是时候了 |
| 51 | when I start to hear the cicadas and I see these pink flowers. | 当我开始听到Cicadas和 我看到这些粉红色的花朵。 |
| 52 | It's like no matter what internal | 这就像无论什么内部 |
| 53 | weather and emotions I'm facing, these plants always just remain as a consistent neutral | 这些植物总是保持中立 |
| 54 | presence that appears at this time of year. | 在每年的这个时候出现。 |
| 55 | No matter how sad I am, or no matter what I'm | 不管我有多伤心,也不管我有多伤心 |
| 56 | thinking about, they're there. | 想想,他们在那里。 |
| 57 | They're always there. | 他们总是在那里。 |
| 58 | It's like a promise. | 如是许愿. |
| 59 | I guess I wanted to | 我想我想这样 |
| 60 | talk to you guys about transformation and that feeling of coming to the same conclusion over | 和你们谈谈转变 以及得出同样结论的感觉 |
| 61 | and over again, and that sort of frustration that happens there. | 和那种挫折感 发生在那里。 |
| 62 | In my last video, You Have Time, | 在我最后的录影带"你有时间"里 |
| 63 | I was really trying to emphasize that good things take time. | 我真的想强调好的事情需要时间。 |
| 64 | Even if you don't feel an | 即使你没有感觉 |
| 65 | immense amount of progress instantly working towards a goal and a dream, it pieces itself | 迅速取得巨大进展,实现一个目标,实现一个梦想, |
| 66 | together over time. | 一起过一段时间 |
| 67 | And similarly, I'm at this point of year now reflecting on what I'm trying | 类似地,我今年正在思考 我正在努力 |
| 68 | to let go of and coming to these conclusions. | 并得出这些结论。 |
| 69 | And it can be hard to come to the same conclusion or | 很难得出同样的结论 |
| 70 | {\fn黑体\fs22\bord1\shad0\3aHBE\4aH00\fscx67\fscy66\2cHFFFFFF\3cH808080}意识到你仍然处在你不想去的地方 | |
| 71 | I wanted to have this conversation | 我想跟你谈谈 |
| 72 | for you and for me to remember that if you are seeking a change in anything in your life, | 让你和我记住 如果你想改变你的生活 |
| 73 | and you're not feeling dramatic shifts or seeing extreme results, transformation is always happening. | 你并没有感受到戏剧性的转变 也没有看到极端的结果 转变总是在发生 |
| 74 | And that's something that I've been struck with this mid-June, is I am a different person than | 6月中旬我被打得头晕眼花 |
| 75 | I was last year and the year before that. | 我是去年和前一年。 |
| 76 | Even if it doesn't feel like I have made an infinite | 即使感觉我做不尽人意 |
| 77 | amount of progress, I am reminding myself that change is undergoing, whether I like it or not. | 我提醒自己,无论我喜不喜欢,变革正在发生。 |
| 78 | And it's up to me. | 亦由我决定. |
| 79 | I can embody and embrace that change. | 我可以体现和拥抱这种变化。 |
| 80 | I can recognize it. | 我能认出来 |
| 81 | I can appreciate it. | 我可以欣赏它。 |
| 82 | I can realize that, you know, things are taking time and that's okay. | 我能意识到,你知道, 事情需要时间,没关系。 |
| 83 | The more that I make peace | 我越是和好 |
| 84 | with that. | 还有那个 |
| 85 | My best friend's birthday is actually June 15th in the middle of June, and her and I | 我最好的朋友的生日实际上是6月15日 六月中旬,和她和我 |
| 86 | have been reflecting a lot on this idea of slow and steady wins the race. | 慢慢稳定地赢得比赛的想法 |
| 87 | The tortoise wins the | 乌龟赢了 |
| 88 | race against the hare, you know, the story with the tortoise and the hare. | 赛车对抗兔子,你知道, 的故事与龟和兔子。 |
| 89 | And it doesn't mean | 这并不意味着 |
| 90 | just sit there and do nothing, but it means that what we're working towards, we have to believe | 只是坐在那里什么都不做, 但这意味着我们正在努力,我们必须相信 |
| 91 | that any bit of effort we put into that mentally, physically, every action is building up to something | 我们付出的任何努力 在精神上,身体上, 每一个行动 正在积累的东西 |
| 92 | and it is better not to live out of that rushing scarcity comparison mode and come from a place of | 最好不要生活在这种 急速的稀缺比较模式 并且来自一个地方 |
| 93 | knowing, hey, I am on this path. | 知道,嘿,我在这条路上。 |
| 94 | I'm going to continue to look for those answers, ask for those | 我会继续寻找这些答案,要求这些答案 |
| 95 | answers, and do everything I can each day. | 回答,并尽我所能 每天。 |
| 96 | Even if that's not perfect, even if it's not the most | 即使这不完美,即使它不是最 |
| 97 | monumental step you can take, the grandest risk that's available, taking these little moments, | 你可以采取重大步骤, 最大的风险是, 采取这些小瞬间, |
| 98 | these little steps, you are undergoing a transformation, especially if you do have | 这些小步骤,你正在经历一个转变,特别是如果你有 |
| 99 | a vision in mind or something you're working towards. | 脑中的幻觉或者你正在为之努力的东西 |
| 100 | I feel as though the more we're able | 我觉得我们越能 |
| 101 | to implement patience and embody what we're looking to become, what we're trying to grow into, | 实现耐心 体现我们所期望的 成长成什么 |
| 102 | I think it's powerful to take a second to remember where we're going and realize that we're on the | 我认为它的力量 需要一秒钟 来记住我们要去哪里 并意识到我们正在 |
| 103 | path there. | 路径在那里。 |
| 104 | We don't need to rush, we don't need to run, somebody's not going to take it before us, | 我们不需要匆忙,我们不需要逃跑, 有人不会把它摆在我们面前, |
| 105 | you don't need to do it exactly like this person did or feel bad that you're not at this place. | 你不需要像这个人那样做 也不觉得你不在这个地方 |
| 106 | It's happening. | 发生了 |
| 107 | It might be happening in layers, it might be happening throughout the years, | 它可能发生在层次上, 它可能发生在多年, |
| 108 | it might be happening in small steps, but it is happening. | 它可能在小步内发生,但它正在发生。 |
| 109 | We are growing. | 我们正在成长。 |
| 110 | As we have this | 既然我们有了这个 |
| 111 | conversation right now, we're growing and this will lead us to a different place. | 现在的对话,我们正在成长 这将引导我们去另一个地方。 |
| 112 | This spring | 这个春天 |
| 113 | slash summer, there have been so many caterpillars just outside my door and they have been munching | 夏天,有这么多毛毛虫 就在我门外,他们一直在发牢骚 |
| 114 | on this passionflower vine. | 这根香花藤 |
| 115 | There are so many of them, there are tons of chrysalises, chrysalis, | 有这么多的,有吨的 菊花,菊花, |
| 116 | there are many chrysalises. | 有很多鸡尾酒 |
| 117 | I see a chrysalis in almost every single spot whenever I walk outside | 当我走出去时,我几乎每个地方都看到一朵菊花 |
| 118 | and I've been lucky enough to see the butterflies come out and they're enjoying the garden right | 我很幸运看到蝴蝶出来 他们喜欢花园 |
| 119 | around my door. | 绕着我的门 |
| 120 | I feel like such a magical lucky fairy when I walk out the door and all these | 我走出门的时候 感觉就像一个神奇的幸运仙子 |
| 121 | are flying, but they've taught me a lesson. | 正在飞行,但他们给了我一个教训。 |
| 122 | There's been a lot of storms this June like | 今年六月暴风雨很多 |
| 123 | there usually are here where I live, a lot of thunderstorms, the flowers coming out, and | 通常我住在这里, 大量的雷暴, 花出来, |
| 124 | I've watched each chrysalis withstand these crazy night storms and they sort of shut themselves away | 我看着每个克赖萨利人 承受着这些疯狂的夜晚风暴 他们把自己关了起来 |
| 125 | and hide and go inward for however long they need to to make this transformation. | 并躲起来,然后潜入其中 无论他们需要多久才能实现这种转变。 |
| 126 | A few of them have | 有几个 |
| 127 | come out with damaged wings and were not able to fly and sadly didn't make it and my neighbor | 带着受损的翅膀出来 无法飞翔 可悲的是 没能成功 和我的邻居 |
| 128 | and I, we've been observing all of these and we saw one coming out of the chrysalis just yesterday | 我,我们一直在观察所有这些, 我们看见一个出来 就在昨天 |
| 129 | and he was noticing that the wing was a little bit damaged in the unfurling process and he was kind | 他注意到机翼在拆卸过程中有一点损坏 他很善良 |
| 130 | of lacking hope for the butterfly saying, you know, this chrysalis in particular was built on | 对蝴蝶缺乏希望, 说,你知道, 这个crysalis 特别建立在 |
| 131 | a very stable foundation and there's been storms and usually during the unfurling process that's | 一个非常稳定的基础 有风暴, 通常在脱毛过程中 |
| 132 | when you can see if the wing is going to make it or not and this one was looking like it might not | 当你能看到机翼是否成功 而这个看起来可能不行 |
| 133 | make it. | 做到这一点。 |
| 134 | It's like that one was just overwhelmed with the urge to transform because it decided to | 这就像一个只是被 冲动改造,因为它决定 |
| 135 | transform on us on something that's not like secure because you know right solid and all these | 改变在我们身上的东西 不像安全,因为你知道正确的固体和所有这些 |
| 136 | you've seen over here are all solid right yeah so that's the difference i'm saying like it's on | 你在这里看到的一切是坚实的 是的,这就是我所说的不同 |
| 137 | something that like moves. | 喜欢移动的东西。 |
| 138 | Oh look, a visit, a tough look at it. | 哦,你看,一个访问, 一个艰难的看它。 |
| 139 | Like everyone's here you know. | 就像每个人都在这里 你知道。 |
| 140 | If that crumple doesn't fix it's not gonna fly and if it already kind of had that experience like it | 如果那个碎屑不能修好 它不会飞 如果它已经有过这样的经历 |
| 141 | could have yeah. | 可能有对。 |
| 142 | How could how could it get fixed though? | 怎么会修好呢? |
| 143 | These just seem like they might already be | 这些似乎已经是 |
| 144 | This this little butterfly may not be eating the ground. | 这只小蝴蝶可能不会吃地 |
| 145 | Just that crazy rainstorm the other | 只是那场疯狂的暴雨 |
| 146 | night i'm like i wonder how it was holding up in the midst of that on something that you like you | 晚上,我好像在想... ...你喜欢的东西... ... 里面怎么撑得住? |
| 147 | said not secure. | 说不安全。 |
| 148 | Feed this thing nectar and keep it alive but it's never gonna have whatever it | 给它吃点花蜜,让它活下来 但是它永远不会有任何东西 |
| 149 | has to be able to fly. | 必须能够飞行。 |
| 150 | I haven't told you guys this yet but i have been gearing up for a very big move | и临⊿禗筁 琌и竒非称《笆 |
| 151 | a move to another country um my dream city i will be moving to london uh in two weeks | 搬去另一个国家 我的梦想之城 两周后我就要搬去伦敦了 |
| 152 | i might already no i don't think i'll already be there by the time you see this but | 我可能已经没有了,我不认为 我会已经在那里 当你看到这一点,但 |
| 153 | i'm i'm moving in july it's not a new idea or aspiration it's something that i have wanted | 我在July搬家 这不是什么新想法或新愿望 |
| 154 | since i was 15. | 因为我15岁。 |
| 155 | I feel very grateful to have traveled there multiple times some of my favorite | 我非常感激你多次去我最喜欢的地方 |
| 156 | videos on my channel are when i'm in london and i felt extremely inspired and excited being there | 我的频道的视频是 当我在隆登, 我感觉非常灵感和兴奋在那里 |
| 157 | and i'm deciding to take this journey to live there for a period of time and it has been sort | 我决定走这段路 在那里生活一段时间, 并且它一直排序 |
| 158 | {\fn黑体\fs22\bord1\shad0\3aHBE\4aH00\fscx67\fscy66\2cHFFFFFF\3cH808080}我可不会撒谎 {\fn黑体\fs22\bord1\shad0\3aHBE\4aH00\fscx67\fscy66\2cHFFFFFF\3cH808080}我们之前说过这个 {\fn黑体\fs22\bord1\shad0\3aHBE\4aH00\fscx67\fscy66\2cHFFFFFF\3cH808080}或者活在梦里 | |
| 159 | and longing for something is so much more fun sometimes than actually adjusting to the change | 渴望一些东西 有时候比适应变化更有趣 |
| 160 | coming to terms with the good the bad the ugly of goodbyes and and making new choices that bring | 与好人和解 与坏人 丑陋的再见 和做出新的选择带来 |
| 161 | us to new places it's fun to long for these changes but to actually go through the transformation of | 我们到新地方去 渴望这些变化是很有趣的 但实际上要经历 |
| 162 | making it happen it's scary it's so scary to the point that i you know have been in my chrysalis | 让它发生,它是如此的可怕 它是如此的可怕,以至于我 你知道,我一直在我的菊花 |
| 163 | i've been hiding i've been in a state of fear and like can i really do this yes i dream of opening | 我一直躲起来,我一直 处于恐惧的状态 喜欢我可以真的做到这一点 |
| 164 | my wings and flying to a faraway place and this freedom and discovery and growth but can i really | 我的翅膀,飞到遥远的地方 自由,发现和成长,但我真的可以 |
| 165 | do it that has been the question in the back of my mind for years and years this is everything to me | 做我脑后的问题 多年来,这是我的一切 |
| 166 | but when i finally save enough money or plan for it to happen or organize the move that's when all | 但当我最终节省足够的钱 或计划 发生或组织行动 |
| 167 | of the fear sets in and the and the doubt and the oh you know what actually let me catastrophize this | 恐惧和怀疑... 以及奥奥... |
| 168 | no worst case scenario is going to happen so i can't live out my dream i don't know if you guys | 没有最坏的场景会发生 所以我不能活在我的梦里 我不知道你们是不是 |
| 169 | experienced this but it's something that i've been dealing with now for quite a while of wanting to | 经历了这个,但这是一件我一直在处理 相当长一段时间想 |
| 170 | embody my growth and my dreams but feeling scared to do so and being able to fantasize about growing | 体现我的成长和梦想,但感到害怕这样做,并且能够幻想成长 |
| 171 | strong and independent enough to do something like this but in reality having doubt about actually | 强大而独立 足以做这样的事情 但实际上却对现实存疑 |
| 172 | going out into the world and making it happen you know reality is is different from the fantasy and | 进入世界,让它发生 你知道现实与幻想不同 |
| 173 | when we were looking at this little butterfly coming out of its chrysalis and my neighbor was | 当我们看着这只小蝴蝶 从它的Crysalis和我的邻居。 |
| 174 | so certain that it wouldn't be able to fly because it built its chrysalis on an unstable foundation | 因为它在不稳定的地基上 搭建了水晶 |
| 175 | it made me think about this upcoming journey and it made me think about how i didn't have the most | 这让我想起了即将到来的旅行 让我想起了自己如何没有 |
| 176 | stable upbringing i felt like things were quite rocky and insecure at times and i was building my | 稳定的教养,我觉得事情是相当 岩石和不安全 有时,我在建设我的 |
| 177 | foundation in that environment and in those sort of behavioral patterns of things being a little | 在那种环境中 和那种行为模式 事物有点 |
| 178 | not so stable or you know not really knowing what's coming next and i've tried to you know | 不太稳定 或者你不知道接下来会发生什么 我试着告诉你 |
| 179 | do the work and build stability for myself but we all know that that can be really challenging and | 做工作,为自己建立稳定,但我们都知道,这可能确实具有挑战性,而且 |
| 180 | we need support and we need a support system and structure and so to build a foundation on | 我们需要支持,我们需要一个支持系统和结构,从而在以下基础上奠定基础: |
| 181 | something not stable and attempt to grow from that it can be hard and when we were looking at | 一些不稳定的东西 试图成长 从它可能很难 当我们在看 |
| 182 | this chrysalis and thinking the wing was damaged i just i was like no no no no i really want this | 这个克丽莎莉丝 以为机翼受损了 我只是... |
| 183 | butterfly to be able to fly even if it built its chrysalis on an unstable foundation it still | 蝴蝶可以飞,即使它建立 它的克里萨利在不稳定的基础上 |
| 184 | deserves a chance maybe it will make it and you know we kind of just left it i was working outside | 值得机会,也许它会让它, 你知道我们只是 离开它,我工作在外面 |
| 185 | all day yesterday so i kind of was peeking at the butterfly seeing it come out a little bit more | 昨天一整天,我偷看蝴蝶 看见蝴蝶出来多一点 |
| 186 | and more and then finally almost towards the evening time i was walking around the garden | 更多,最后接近晚上 我走在花园里 |
| 187 | and i saw that the butterfly had moved it hadn't flown but it had moved out of the chrysalis and | 我看见蝴蝶移动了 它没有飞,但它移动了 克里斯利和 |
| 188 | closer to the flowers and i was so excited looking at it but it looked like it was still kind of | 靠近花朵,我非常兴奋地看着它 但看起来它还是有点 |
| 189 | you know struggling to move so i brought it a little flower to drink from and then my neighbor | 你知道挣扎着搬家 所以我带了花给邻居喝 |
| 190 | ended up setting it on to a bush nearby we could still see that the wing was not totally unfurled | 我们仍能看到机翼没有完全脱落 |
| 191 | yet it didn't look super promising but we were trying to give it some food some shelter maybe | 但看起来并不乐观 但我们想给它一些食物 也许提供一些庇护 |
| 192 | perk it up a little bit there you go here let's put you back just with a little bit of belief | 把它加一点,你去那里, 让我们把你带回来 只是一点点的信念 |
| 193 | and support the butterfly flew away it flew off of my neighbor's finger and flew into the garden | 支持蝴蝶飞走 它从我邻居的手指上飞走 飞进花园 |
| 194 | i'll believe in you but you're gonna have to eat you're gonna have to eat and it could fly even | 我会相信你 但你得吃东西 它会飞的 |
| 195 | with the wing being a little wonky it was still unfurling it was coming out you gotta eat you can | 翅膀有点晕了,它还是松开 它出来了,你可以吃 |
| 196 | stay here the night it's a pretty chill spot but you gotta eat and to get to witness that entire | 晚上呆在这里,这是一个相当寒冷的地方 但你得吃东西,然后见证这一切 |
| 197 | life cycle right on my doorstep is a huge inspiration to me truly to make this huge | 在我的门阶上 生命的循环 是一个巨大的灵感 真正使这个巨大的 |
| 198 | step this leap to take this risk i've felt so scared about coming from a broken foundation | 踏上这个跳跃 冒这个险 我害怕从破碎的地基冒出来 |
| 199 | or like my wings are not going to be able to send me off and that i won't be able to do it myself | 或像我的翅膀 将无法送我出去 而我将无法自己做到这一点 |
| 200 | and you know just all these fears holding me back i've sort of unintentionally used this whole past | 你知道所有这些恐惧 拖累我 我无意中利用了过去 |
| 201 | to be in my chrysalis an attempt to heal to rest to transform like i said in the middle of june | 就像我在June中间说过的那样 |
| 202 | having these realizations sort of reevaluating my life and my decisions i felt like am i really | 重新评价我的生活和决定 我觉得我真的 |
| 203 | making progress am i just you know resting hiding am i really doing enough am i really taking enough | 取得进步,我只是你知道 休息躲藏,我真的做 足够,我真的受够 |
| 204 | action could i be doing more you know this constant sort of pressure um that maybe society | 我可能会做更多 你知道这种 恒定的压力,嗯,也许社会 |
| 205 | puts on us that we put on ourselves if we're you know entrepreneurial we're our own bosses and we | 告诉我们,如果我们知道 创业,我们是我们的老板和我们 |
| 206 | like maybe we could be pushing ourselves to do more where's the balance i've struggled a lot | 就像也许我们可以推动自己 做更多的事情 哪里的平衡 我奋斗了很多 |
| 207 | with these thoughts but i've also let myself kind of come inward and rest there have been lots of | 有了这些想法,我也让自己 有点内向,休息 有很多 |
| 208 | storms and i've been taking my time to heal and feeling like nothing's happening nothing's happening | 暴风雨,我花了我的时间去疗伤 感觉什么也没有发生 |
| 209 | what's going on am i doing enough and then finally there's this moment and it doesn't happen all at | 到底发生了什么 我做了足够的, 最后有这一刻, 它没有发生的一切在 |
| 210 | once but this moment of breaking out taking the leap taking the jump testing the wings learning | 一次,但这一刻 跳跃 跳跃测试 翅膀学习 |
| 211 | to fly and just to see all these caterpillars doing that ever so naturally right outside my | {\fn华文楷体\fs16\1cHE0E0E0}飞翔 {\fn华文楷体\fs16\1cHE0E0E0}看到这些毛毛虫在做那些事 |
| 212 | door they're they're showing me it's possible that this graceful intricate machinery of these | 他们给我看的门 有可能是这种优雅的复杂机械 |
| 213 | wings it can take place only if they do go inward build that safety maybe it's not even built on the | 机翼只有在它们进到内侧时才能进行 建造安全装置 也许它甚至没有建在 |
| 214 | most stable foundation but going inwards taking a second hunkering down can bring transformation | 最稳定的基础,但向内走 第二次猎杀下来可以带来转变 |
| 215 | and i'm i'm resonating with that life cycle because i feel like i'm at a point now | 我对生命周期有共鸣 因为我觉得自己已经到了一个点 |
| 216 | in the middle of june this summer realizing i am in the same city i am contemplating the same | 今年夏天,在June的中间... ...意识到我在同一座城市... ...我也是这么想的 |
| 217 | {\fn黑体\fs22\bord1\shad0\3aHBE\4aH00\fscx67\fscy66\2cHFFFFFF\3cH808080}决定或告别 {\fn黑体\fs22\bord1\shad0\3aHBE\4aH00\fscx67\fscy66\2cHFFFFFF\3cH808080}但我是另一个自我 | |
| 218 | all of that has led me to a point where now i'm taking the biggest risk i ever have the biggest | 所有这一切使我到了一个点 现在我承担最大的风险 我有过最大的 |
| 219 | leap i'm i'm literally just speaking of wings i've been thinking a lot about airplane machinery and | 飞跃,我只是说到翅膀 我一直在想飞机机械 |
| 220 | i'm gonna go on a long 10-hour flight and it's just gonna take me somewhere like like it's no | 我要坐10小时长的班机 带我到一个像没有的地方 |
| 221 | problem there's a line to a poem that i have that you guys have not heard and it's similarly to | 问题是我有一首诗的台词 你们没听过,这和 |
| 222 | a jet plane all that metal and machine flying my heart across the world like it doesn't mean a | 一架喷气式飞机 所有的金属和机器 飞遍了我的心 像它并不意味着一个 |
| 223 | thing and we're lucky right we're human beings we don't have to grow wings like butterflies and | 幸好我们是人类 我们不必像蝴蝶一样长翅膀 |
| 224 | make a chrysalis and all these things but i do think we resemble that transformation process in | 做一个crysalis 和所有这些事情 但我确实认为我们 相似的转变过程在 |
| 225 | how you know good things take time we've talked about it before but transformation is taking place | 你如何知道好事需要时间 我们之前已经谈过了 但转变正在发生 |
| 226 | regardless even when we're going inward resting if you have a goal or an intention something you're | 无论我们什么时候要进去休息 如果你有目标或意图 |
| 227 | working towards productivity doesn't always look like getting every single thing on your checklist | 努力提高生产率并不总是 看起来像得到所有的东西 在你的清单 |
| 228 | checked off sometimes it looks like making sure you're eating enough making sure you're sleeping | 有时候,它看起来像确保 你吃够了,确保你睡觉 |
| 229 | enough and these are privileges in our modern world but these are things that i've felt a bit | 这些是现代世界的特权 但这些是我感觉的 |
| 230 | taking time for these days i've felt a lack of productivity or like i'm being selfish with my | 这些天我一直觉得自己缺乏生产力 或者说我对我的自私 |
| 231 | time but i know just based on the things that i'm saying goodbye to and the decisions that i've made | 时间,但我只知道基于 事情,我说再见 和我已经做的决定 |
| 232 | that i need some time to heal to grieve to transform and become a new version of myself | 我需要一些时间来疗伤 悲伤地改变自己 成为我的新时代 |
| 233 | that i haven't met yet this whole middle of june thing that i keep talking about it feels like | 我还没见过这整个 中间的June的事情 我不断谈论它的感觉像 |
| 234 | {\fn黑体\fs22\bord1\shad0\3aHBE\4aH00\fscx67\fscy66\2cHFFFFFF\3cH808080}一个我得出同样结论的地方 {\fn黑体\fs22\bord1\shad0\3aHBE\4aH00\fscx67\fscy66\2cHFFFFFF\3cH808080}为了给你们一点 | |
| 235 | personal insight i live in the city that i grew up in i had a lot of long-lasting relationships | 我住在我长大的城市 我有很多长久的关系 |
| 236 | friendships attachments to my environment a lot of things that i am so eternally grateful for and | 友情依恋我的环境 很多我永远感激的事 |
| 237 | have made me the person i am today but also a lot of things that i know that i've outgrown and it | 使我成为今天的人 但也有很多事情我知道 我已经长大了 |
| 238 | can be very scary to come to that conclusion that i've outgrown this or i'm ready for a new step i'm | 可能很吓人地得出这样的结论,我 已经成长了这个,或者我准备好了一个新的步骤,我 |
| 239 | to take the next leap it's taken me a long time to actually prepare to take that leap if that makes | 我花了很长的时间 才真正准备好跳跃 如果那就 |
| 240 | sense i haven't even taken it yet i'm about to it's taken me years to say goodbye to certain | 感觉我还没有拿它,我马上就要... ...我花了好几年的时间跟某些人说再见 |
| 241 | things that i've outgrown and that's what i there's a poem of mine called heartbroken in the middle | 我成长得超乎寻常 中间有首我伤心的诗 |
| 242 | of june and this is a very important poem to me a very important piece of work that i have made and | 这首诗对我很重要 我做了一件很重要的作品 |
| 243 | it's the third poem on my poetry collection you can listen to it anywhere spotify apple music | 这是我诗集的第三首诗 你可以在苹果音乐中随便听 |
| 244 | and you will be able to read it in your hands very soon more on that soon but listening it's | 很快你就能在手中读到它 但听它 |
| 245 | a spoken word poetry album sort of a unique way to consume poetry it's not it's like a | 口语诗歌专辑 一种独特的 消费诗歌的方式 它不是像一个 |
| 246 | ambient story soundscape i recommend you listen with headphones go to the park lay down wherever | 我建议你听 耳机去公园的任何地方 |
| 247 | you want to listen to it but it's a very it's an immersive experience the third poem in that | 你想听它,但它是一个非常 它是一个浸润的经历 第三首诗在那 |
| 248 | is called heartbroken in the middle of june i've worked very hard on a video a recitation sort of | 在June的中间被称为伤心 我非常努力地工作 在视频中 一种朗诵 |
| 249 | like a music video if you will it was directed and shot and edited by me so it has taken me | 就像一个音乐录影带,如果你愿意 它被引导,拍摄和编辑 由我所以它带我 |
| 250 | a very long time to get it out there but it is on my patreon now you can go watch it i've worked | 花了很长的时间把它弄出来,但是它在我的板牙上 现在,你可以去看它,我已经工作过。 |
| 251 | very hard on it you can listen to the poem completely for free wherever you stream your | 很难听清这首诗 无论你流在哪里 |
| 252 | music but if you would like to see the visuals alongside it i recommend joining the patreon | 音乐,但如果你想看到 视觉的同时,我建议加入Patreon |
| 253 | these poetry videos will be a part of my library and creations forever they mean the world to me | 这些诗歌录影带 将永远成为我图书馆的一部分 和创作 |
| 254 | that poem heartbroken in the middle of june was inspired by this feeling it was based on coming | 朱恩中间那首心碎的诗 被这种感觉所启发 |
| 255 | {\fn黑体\fs22\bord1\shad0\3aHBE\4aH00\fscx67\fscy66\2cHFFFFFF\3cH808080}我总是觉得自己没学过 也没有进步 | |
| 256 | changing but each one of those dunes i couldn't see it in the moment but i was transforming even | 但每一块沙丘我都看不见 但我正在改造 |
| 257 | it was frustrating and you know i probably could have saved myself and made decisions faster or a | 我很沮丧,你知道 我也许可以拯救自己 做出更快的决定 |
| 258 | little bit more harshly but i do have i have had a hard time i caught myself there you see what i | 更严厉一点,但我确实有 我有一个艰难的时间 我发现自己在那里,你看到我是什么 |
| 259 | did instead of saying i do have a hard time i'm not gonna say that i'm gonna say i have had a | 而不是说我确实很难过 我不会说我曾经有过 |
| 260 | hard time and i'm working through that i have had a tricky time in the past getting accompanied | 难熬的时光,我努力渡过过去的难熬时光 |
| 261 | to change and accepting change in my life being able to embody that change and feel confident | 改变和接受我生活中的改变 能够体现这种改变和自信 |
| 262 | forward into uncharted territories whether that means letting a relationship go or | 进入未知的领地 是否意味着放弃关系 |
| 263 | leaving my city behind all these things i was coming to that conclusion like i wanted to leave | 离开我的城市 背着所有这些事情 我得出这个结论 就像我想离开 |
| 264 | like i wanted to get up like i wanted to change and it was so frustrating to come back to that | 就像我想起来一样 想改变,它是如此令人沮丧回来 |
| 265 | every single year and feel ashamed of not making enough change but now looking back at it with a | 每一年都觉得羞愧 没有足够的改变,但现在回顾一下 |
| 266 | different perspective and having made some significant change in my life and still maybe | 改变了我的生活,也许 |
| 267 | shed some of the things that i've outgrown i can see now that i needed every single one of those | 掉出一些我已经长大了的东西 现在我可以看到,我需要每一个这些东西 |
| 268 | dunes to get to this one to be able to make this leap and to transform in this way even though i | 沙丘可以到达这一个 能够实现这个飞跃 并以这种方式改变,尽管我 |
| 269 | didn't realize it every year was a layer of understanding that i had to come to even if it | 没想到每年我都会理解到 即便如此 |
| 270 | felt repetitive it was slowly granting me the motivation each time to change a little more to | 感觉重复 它慢慢地给了我动力 每次多换一点 |
| 271 | myself a little more it was showing revealing my emotions to me a little bit more and it was | 更让我感动的 |
| 272 | sometimes an agonizing long process even just like wanting to make this move for the past 10 | 有时一个痛苦的漫长过程 就像过去10年想做这个动作一样 |
| 273 | years of my life but not being financially able to or being too young or being too scared to move | 我生命中很多年,但是没有经济能力 或太年轻,或害怕搬家 |
| 274 | away from my family and everything i know i had to have those fears every year i had to come back | 远离我的家人和我知道的一切 我不得不有这些恐惧 每年我不得不回来 |
| 275 | to those conclusions every year because it allowed me to work through them a little bit more each | 我每年都能从这些结论中得出一些结论,因为这样我就能通过这些结论,使每个结论稍多一点。 |
| 276 | to see them as a slightly older and wiser version of myself to get to a point of clarity to get to | 把他们看成一个稍老 更聪明的版本 我得到一个清晰点 |
| 277 | a point of understanding and yes maybe it took a long time but that's what i needed to make this | 一点理解和是的 也许花了很长时间 但我需要这样 |
| 278 | {\fn黑体\fs22\bord1\shad0\3aHBE\4aH00\fscx67\fscy66\2cHFFFFFF\3cH808080}这就是我花了多少时间 {\fn黑体\fs22\bord1\shad0\3aHBE\4aH00\fscx67\fscy66\2cHFFFFFF\3cH808080}如果我们现在 | |
| 279 | going back to this butterfly metaphor you know i they can't they don't know how long they're | 回到这个蝴蝶的比喻,你知道,我不能 他们不知道他们多久 |
| 280 | gonna be in there they're gonna be in there for the exact right amount of time for the machinery | 在那里,他们会在那里 准确的正确时间 机器 |
| 281 | of their wings to properly develop and send them off as a new version and so i guess i just wanted | 他们的翅膀可以适当开发 并发送它们作为一个新版本 所以我猜我只是想 |
| 282 | to say that if you feel frustrated like you're coming to the same conclusions over and over | 说如果你感到沮丧 就像你来来来回地得出同样的结论 |
| 283 | again maybe there's a reason for that maybe to make that change you need to be reminded of what | 砛Τ |
| 284 | you're sitting with i'm not always the best at letting go and i tend to romanticize the good parts | 你坐在我身边,我并不总是最好的 放手,我倾向于浪漫的好部分 |
| 285 | and want to hold on despite maybe things that are showing me it's not very healthier it's | 想要坚持下去,尽管也许 事情正在告诉我 它不是非常健康 |
| 286 | something that i would be better off letting go it has been a long hard process of letting go | 我宁愿放手的一件事 已经是一个很艰难的过程 |
| 287 | but i needed to come to that conclusion multiple times before i was able to do so and that's okay | 但我需要做出多次结论 之前,我可以做到这一点,没关系 |
| 288 | it's okay if things take time it's okay that we can't always tell when transformation is happening | 如果事情需要时间,那也没关系 我们无法总是知道何时发生转变 |
| 289 | but to know that it is even whenever we're coming to the same conclusions and | 但只要我们得出相同的结论 |
| 290 | we feel like we haven't made progress every single that moment of awareness that you've come | 我们感觉我们没有取得进步 每一个时刻,你来了 |
| 291 | to the same conclusion is progress realizing that you're unhappy with something even if it | 同样的结论是 发现你对某件事情不满意 |
| 292 | takes multiple times is pushing you to transform sometimes we have to be reminded of why we're | 需要多次时间 迫使你转变 有时我们必须被提醒 |
| 293 | doing something over and over again to get enough courage to do it and i don't think we always have | 一次又一次地做一些事情 以获得足够的勇气去做, 我不认为我们总是有 |
| 294 | to i think some people do have the gift of knowing their worth or they know it's going to be painful | 我觉得有些人确实有天分 知道自己的价值 或者他们知道那会很痛苦 |
| 295 | i have to let this go and maybe some people do not draw it out as much and it's not as dramatic | 我不得不放手,也许有些人 画得不够多 也没有戏剧性 |
| 296 | and ongoing and and i hope to you know learn how to be more like that and not be so afraid of change | 我希望你能学会 如何更像那样 不要害怕变化 |
| 297 | but it has taken me a long time to grow to this point and i'm finding peace with that and i'm | 但我花了很长的时间才发展到这个地步 而我正在寻找和平 |
| 298 | being okay with that and i'm allowing the butterflies to inspire me in that i'm going | 我允许蝴蝶们启发我 |
| 299 | to read you guys a little entry from my diary i said it can take a long time to learn a lesson | 我从我的日记里读到一个小条目,我说需要很长时间才能吸取教训 |
| 300 | and that is okay i can feel the pages turning the fire catching there are chrysalis growing on the | 这没关系,我可以感觉到 页面翻起火 抓住有 菊花生长在 |
| 301 | passionflower vine my neighbor strung above he and i's doorway the caterpillars ate most of the vine | 激情花藤 我的邻居把他吊在他上边 我在门口 毛虫吃了大部分的藤 |
| 302 | butterflies are landing on my doorstep small ants and some large ones with wings race up and down | 蝴蝶要降落在我的门阶上 小蚂蚁和一些有翅膀的大蚂蚁上下奔跑 |
| 303 | the tree bark outside my bedroom window lots of change metamorphosis wheels turning in real time | 我卧室窗外的树皮 很多变形轮子实时转动 |
| 304 | wings and their ancient intricate machinery produced right outside in the garden contemplating | 翅膀和它们古老的复杂机械 都产在花园外面 考虑 |
| 305 | endings beginnings and trying to solve the in-between that is already taking place | 结束并试图解决已经发生的介于两者之间 |
| 306 | a baby fawn catches my eye from outside the window it nurses on its mother as she eats | 一只小鹿从窗外抓住我的眼睛 它在她妈妈吃东西时照顾她 |
| 307 | low-hanging leaves hummingbirds glistening in a blink you can barely catch them like fairies | 低挂的叶子蜂鸟闪闪发光 你几乎无法像仙子一样抓住它们 |
| 308 | gentle spirits that live amongst the pomegranate tree leaving gifts of the garden upon my doorstep | 住在石榴树里的温柔的灵灵 在我门口留下花园的礼物 |
| 309 | spearmint a purple flower sage the exact presences i didn't even know that i needed | 紫色的紫色的花香 我什至不知道我需要什么 |
| 310 | quiet demanding nothing providing an offering that's all the deer ask too for a quiet safe | 安静地要求不提供礼物 鹿也要求一个安静的保险箱 |
| 311 | {\fn黑体\fs22\bord1\shad0\3aHBE\4aH00\fscx67\fscy66\2cHFFFFFF\3cH808080}我最好的朋友的生日在June的中间 {\fn黑体\fs22\bord1\shad0\3aHBE\4aH00\fscx67\fscy66\2cHFFFFFF\3cH808080}有场雷暴 | |
| 312 | the night of this is a repeated sensation i felt for a long time living in texas | 夜晚,我不断感受到 生活在德克萨斯 |
| 313 | sad and heartbroken over the same people it comes to a head as the days get hotter | 伤心和伤心的同一个人 它来到一个头 随着日子越来越热 |
| 314 | something about the sweltering heat cracks something open the scalding combustion of all | 热量的压抑 打开了一切 |
| 315 | left unsaid the feelings that just cannot seem to find their way out through the tongue | 留下的感情 似乎无法通过舌头找到出路 |
| 316 | just sitting until they are sweat out forced by the season's perspiration old truths drying up | 就坐着,直到他们汗出 迫于这个季节的幻觉 古老的真相逐渐干涸 |
| 317 | the concrete how many times must one sweat out the same truth until they decide to do something | 具体地说,在他们决定做点什么之前, 多少次必须要有同样的真理 |
| 318 | with it i had come to the same conclusion multiple summers in a row yet felt like each time was a | 我连个夏天都得出同样的结论 却觉得每次都是 |
| 319 | layer of truth i must learn to accept i am not the same person as i was before yet shedding the | 层层的真相 我必须学会接受 我和以前不一样 |
| 320 | same people lessons in places listening to another ring of intuition when i reached this stage of | 当我到达这个阶段的时候,人们在听另一个直觉圈的地方 也学到了同样的教训 |
| 321 | summer the sun the heat the flowers they feel as familiar as my sorrow the pink and yellow | 夏天阳光照耀 鲜花如我所熟悉 粉红色和黄色 |
| 322 | greeting me at yet another chapter of my life both of us a little bit older one infinitely wiser | 问候我人生的又一个篇章 我们两个年纪都大了一点 更聪明一点 |
| 323 | i carry the weather of my emotions inside and the plants remain outside as a neutral | 我带着我内心的情绪 植物保持中立 |
| 324 | reoccurring loyal presence they are not malicious nor mocking their petals simply remaining a mirror | 重现忠诚的存在 他们不是恶意的 也不是嘲弄自己的花瓣 仅仅是一面镜子 |
| 325 | to all that i am capable of and all that i must shed that was my diary entry and i think this | 所有我有能力 和所有我必须 流出是我的日记条目 我想这个 |
| 326 | more context to heartbroken in the middle of june my one of my favorite poems i've ever written | 我最爱的诗之一 |
| 327 | i would really i would love for you to listen to it on my spoken word album after this video | 我很想听你听这段视频之后 在我的口语专辑上 |
| 328 | i'd love for you to join the patreon and watch the video and listen to it it's a piece of | 我很想你加入Patreon 并观看视频 听它,这是一块 |
| 329 | art that means a lot to me and it really sums up everything we've just talked about here today | 艺术对我很重要 它真的总结了我们今天刚刚谈的一切 |
| 330 | life is full of goodbyes of changes of decisions if there's a version of ourselves that we're | 生活充满了 改变决定的告别 如果有一个版本的我们 |
| 331 | wishing to be it does mean shedding things it does mean leaving places people and things behind | 想要成为它确实意味着 丢弃的东西 它确实意味着离开 人和事物后面 |
| 332 | and that doesn't mean you don't cherish them and what you've become it takes courage to grow and | 这并不意味着你不珍惜他们 你变成什么 需要勇气成长 |
| 333 | it's organically happening right outside the door in nature all the time if there is a decision | 如果有决定的话 自然界的门外就是有机发生的 |
| 334 | that you're teetering on that you know would change your life and you're afraid and you don't | 你会改变你的生活 你害怕,你不会 |
| 335 | know whether or not you want to do it and you'd rather stay safe and comfortable but when you do | 想知道你是否想这样做,你宁愿保持 安全和舒适,但当你这样做 |
| 336 | you come to the same conclusion over and over again take this as your sign to do it i'm doing | 你一遍又一遍地得出同样的结论 把这个当作你的标志来做,我在做 |
| 337 | it i'm so scared guys i'm so scared to move i've never moved away from home before this is a big | 我很害怕,我害怕搬家 从来没有离开过家 之前,这是一个大 |
| 338 | deal but i'm gonna do it because even though i've been scared of it for so long i've wanted it for | 说定了,但我要这么做 尽管我一直害怕它 |
| 339 | so long we can do it we can take the scary steps we can say the sad goodbyes and we can accept all | 只要我们能做到 我们可以采取恐怖的步骤 我们可以说悲伤的告别 |
| 340 | of it that the goodbyes must happen in order to say hello to a new version of ourselves we can | 为了向新版本的我们打个招呼 我们就可以 |
| 341 | cherish these things and decide to grow from them it's okay to have outgrown an environment | 珍惜这些东西,决定从这些东西中成长,可以长出一个环境 |
| 342 | a relationship a version of yourself it's okay to want to know more about yourself and i'm somebody | 一种关系 一种自我的版本 想知道更多关于自己的事情是好的 而我是某个人 |
| 343 | who's so afraid of change yet when i do push myself out of my comfort zone i'm exhilarated | 害怕改变,当我把自己 走出我的舒适区域,我感到兴奋 |
| 344 | by things that i learn and the version of me that comes out on the other end it's what life is about | 由我学到的东西 和我的版本 出来的另一端 是生命是什么 |
| 345 | you know comfort and stability it's a beautiful thing and i wish that for all of us for that | 你知道舒适和稳定是件美妙的事 我希望大家都能理解 |
| 346 | safety that security but if you have the privilege to apply for something that would take you to a | 安全安全,但如果你有特权 申请的东西 会带你到一个 |
| 347 | different environment a different place you've always wondered about doing something maybe it's | 不同的环境 不同的地方 你一直想知道 做一些事情 也许它 |
| 348 | as small as taking a class to learn a new skill i don't know but if you have that inkling in the | 就像上个班学习新技能一样小,我不知道,但如果你有那笔墨水 |
| 349 | back of your mind take this step with me take the risk make the leap trust that you are undergoing | 回心转意 跟我走这一步 冒着风险 让你正在经历的飞跃信任 |
| 350 | transformation and that you can spread your wings even if you feel damaged or you're afraid of the | 改变,你可以展翅 即便你感到受损或害怕 |
| 351 | you've come from and how are you gonna break out of it if you don't feel that confidence yet | 你来自哪里,如果你觉得没有信心,你会如何摆脱它 |
| 352 | it will come the more we push ourselves to do these things and just have some blind faith even | 它会来得越多 我们推自己做这些事情, 只是有一些盲目的信仰,甚至 |
| 353 | when you don't feel ready like that butterfly it was trying it didn't feel ready it had its | 当你不觉得准备好 像蝴蝶 它正在尝试 它不觉得准备好 它有它的 |
| 354 | little wing and it needed some support from us but it's okay now you know it had to be kind of | 小翅膀,它需要我们一些支持 但现在没关系,你知道它必须是那种 |
| 355 | moved around and pushed a little to go take flight we can take flight guys we can we can take the | 移动了一下,推了一点点 去飞行,我们可以带 飞行人员,我们可以带 |
| 356 | leap even if you don't see even if you're not finding satisfaction in all the change right now | 即使你现在没有找到满足感 |
| 357 | it's undergoing it's happening you're transforming whether you like it or not | 正在经历 正在发生 你正在改变 无论你喜欢与否 |
| 358 | but even if we're scared and we don't know what's next we can take the leap we can spread our wings | 但是即使我们害怕,我们不知道接下来会是什么, 我们可以跳跃,我们可以展翅 |
| 359 | and i believe in us and i know that we can fly and that's what i'll be doing as you watch this | и獺и и笵и诀 硂碞琌и穦暗 |
| 360 | video i will be flying across the ocean to a new place to a new home and i'm just so grateful you | 我将飞过海洋去一个新的地方 到一个新的家,我非常感激你 |
| 361 | guys i'm so grateful for the community that i've formed on here i'm so grateful that you've had | 我非常感激我在这里组建的社区 我非常感激你 |
| 362 | this conversation with me today no matter how tumultuous or messy it looks we're all growing | 今天和我的谈话 不管我们看起来有多乱或乱 |
| 363 | we are all on this journey together and i feel that more than i ever have and i'm carrying you | 我们一起踏上这段旅程 我觉得我比以前更爱你 |
| 364 | guys with me in my heart and my camera as i go through this journey and i'm so excited to update | 带着我的人在我的心脏 和我的相机 当我走这趟旅程, 我是如此兴奋 更新 |
| 365 | you where i'm at next yeah thank you for being here through all the seasons the stages um we're | 感谢你们在这度过了这四季 |
| 366 | metamorphosizing and changing as we speak and it is scary but it is also so exciting if you'd like | 我们说话的时候变形和变化,这很可怕,但是如果你愿意的话,也太激动人心了 |
| 367 | this whole message embodied into one singular thing that you can listen to listen to heartbroken in | 这整个信息 包含在一个独特的事物 你可以听 听到伤心的 |
| 368 | the middle of june it holds a lot of meaning that you guys now know about so wherever you are whatever | June的中间有很多意义 你们现在知道 所以无论你们在哪里 |
| 369 | you're doing i hope you're having a beautiful morning evening afternoon and i can't wait to | 你这样做,我希望你有一个美丽的 早晨下午,我迫不及待 |
| 370 | to you again very very soon bye see you across the pond | 很快,再见,你穿过池塘 |
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P2 · 【全英 Vlog 2】The Urge to Transform｜蜕变的渴望，反复思考本身就是成长 p02 the urge to transform (P2)
【全英 Vlog 2】The Urge to Transform｜蜕变的渴望，反复思考本身就是成长 p02 the urge to transform (P2)
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| 时间 | 英文 | 中文 |
|---|---|---|
| 0:00 | It's taken me years to say goodbye to certain things that I've outgrown. | 我花了好几年时间来告别一些我成长不足的东西. |
| 0:04 | I can see now that | 我现在明白了 |
| 0:06 | I needed every single one of those dunes to get to this one, to be able to make this leap, | 我需要这些沙丘中的每一个 到达这个, 能够实现这个飞跃, |
| 0:12 | and to transform in this way. | 并以此方式转变。 |
| 0:14 | What we're working towards, we have to believe that any | 我们正在努力的, 我们必须相信任何 |
| 0:17 | bit of effort we put into that mentally, physically, every action is building up to something, | 我们在精神上 身体上 付出了很大努力 每一次行动都在有所作为 |
| 0:23 | accepting the fact that transformation is taking place, even whenever we can't pick up on it, | 接受转变正在发生的事实 即使我们无法恢复 |
| 0:29 | even whenever we're coming to the same conclusions, and we feel like we haven't made progress, | 即使我们得出相同的结论 我们觉得我们没有取得进展 |
| 0:33 | that moment of awareness that you've come to the same conclusion is progress. | 了解你得出同样结论的那一刻 就是进步 |
| 0:38 | Realizing that you're | 发现你 |
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| 序号 | 英文 | 中文 |
|---|---|---|
| 1 | It's taken me years to say goodbye to certain things that I've outgrown. | 我花了好几年时间来告别一些我成长不足的东西. |
| 2 | I can see now that | 我现在明白了 |
| 3 | I needed every single one of those dunes to get to this one, to be able to make this leap, | 我需要这些沙丘中的每一个 到达这个, 能够实现这个飞跃, |
| 4 | and to transform in this way. | 并以此方式转变。 |
| 5 | What we're working towards, we have to believe that any | 我们正在努力的, 我们必须相信任何 |
| 6 | bit of effort we put into that mentally, physically, every action is building up to something, | 我们在精神上 身体上 付出了很大努力 每一次行动都在有所作为 |
| 7 | accepting the fact that transformation is taking place, even whenever we can't pick up on it, | 接受转变正在发生的事实 即使我们无法恢复 |
| 8 | even whenever we're coming to the same conclusions, and we feel like we haven't made progress, | 即使我们得出相同的结论 我们觉得我们没有取得进展 |
| 9 | that moment of awareness that you've come to the same conclusion is progress. | 了解你得出同样结论的那一刻 就是进步 |
| 10 | Realizing that you're | 发现你 |
| 11 | unhappy with something, even if it takes multiple times, is pushing you to transform. | 对某件事不满意,即使它需要多次, 正在推动你转变。 |
| 12 | Sometimes we | 有时候我们 |
| 13 | have to be reminded of why we're doing something over and over again to get enough courage to do | 必须提醒我们为什么 做一些事情 反复得到足够的勇气去做 |
| 14 | it. | 这个 |
| 15 | I've felt a lack of productivity, or like I'm being selfish with my time, but I know just based | 我感到自己缺乏生产力, 或者像我自私的时间, 但我知道只是基于 |
| 16 | on the things that I'm saying goodbye to, and the decisions that I've made, that I need some time | 关于我要告别的事情 以及我所做的决定 我需要一些时间 |
| 17 | to heal, to breathe, to transform, and become a new version of myself that I haven't met yet. | 治愈 呼吸 转变 变成我还没有见过的新自我 |
| 18 | Hi everybody. | 大家好,你们好 |
| 19 | Welcome to my channel. | 欢迎光临我的频道 |
| 20 | Welcome to this episode of Flowering Philosophies. | 欢迎收看这集"花开哲学". |
| 21 | My name is Inaya, and I come to you during the middle of June. | 我叫伊纳亚,六月中旬来找你 |
| 22 | You may be seeing this at the | 你可能看到这个 |
| 23 | end of June or in the beginning of July. | 6月底或7月初结束。 |
| 24 | Regardless, it's summertime, and it is a warm day today. | 不管怎么说 现在是夏天 今天是温暖的一天 |
| 25 | I just turned the air conditioning off so that I could speak to you in a quiet setting, and you may | 我只是把空调关了 这样我就能在安静的环境下和你说话 你可以 |
| 26 | see me perspiring a little bit, and I apologize for that, but these are the hot summer days that | 看见我有点兴奋,我为此道歉, 但这是炎热的夏天, |
| 27 | we're working with. | 我们正在合作。 |
| 28 | The middle of June has always stood as a point of contemplation for me. | 六月中常为我观想. |
| 29 | I don't | 我没有 |
| 30 | know if it marks literally the middle of the year. | 你知道它是否是 字面上的年中。 |
| 31 | The summertime, the warm weather brings certain | 夏天,温暖的天气带来一定的天气 |
| 32 | things to light, but for the past I want to say decade of my life, since I was a young teenager, | 但对于过去,我想说 我生命的十年, 因为我是一个年轻的青少年, |
| 33 | I've come to similar conclusions every single summer about maybe what it is that I want for | 我每个夏天都得出类似的结论 说不定我想要的是什么 |
| 34 | my life or the habits or people or relationships or versions of myself that I'm looking to shed. | 我的生活 习惯 人 关系 或版本 我期待的我 |
| 35 | The summer and June, it wasn't all inherently negative, but I did notice that I would go | 夏天和六月, 并不是所有固有的负面, 但我确实注意到我会去 |
| 36 | through some of these tumultuous realizations or feel like I'm coming to the same conclusions | 通过这些混乱的觉悟 或者感觉我得出同样的结论 |
| 37 | again and again at this time of year. | 每年这个时候 一次又一次 |
| 38 | I don't know if you want to call it seasonal depression or | 我不知道你是想称之为季节性抑郁症还是 |
| 39 | what. | 什麽? |
| 40 | Maybe you guys feel this way in the winter, in the fall, or there was a certain instance or | 也许你们在冬天,秋天有这种感觉 或者有某种情况 |
| 41 | {\fn黑体\fs22\bord1\shad0\3aHBE\4aH00\fscx67\fscy66\2cHFFFFFF\3cH808080}但对我来说 总是在中间 | |
| 42 | of June. | 六月节 |
| 43 | There's very specific flora and fauna that reveals itself in the middle of June. | 有非常特殊的动植物在6月中旬露面. |
| 44 | There | 那边 |
| 45 | are crepe myrtle trees that are usually very pink and white and beautiful to see during this time, | 通常都是粉红色和白色的 美丽的树 |
| 46 | there are lots of Pride of Barbados flowers everywhere with their big orange blooms. | 到处都有巴巴多斯的荣耀花朵 花朵开着橙色的大花朵 |
| 47 | It's beautiful, the rain, the storms, the heat, the summer. | It美, rain雨,暴风雨,暑暑. |
| 48 | The nature during this time almost | 这期间的本性几乎 |
| 49 | signifies that it's time for me to reflect or brings me to that point of contemplation in | 表示我该反省一下 或将我引向考虑点 |
| 50 | the summer. | 那个夏天 |
| 51 | It's like I know it's that time when I start to hear the cicadas and I see these pink | 好像我知道是那个时候 我开始听到西卡达的声音 我看到这些粉红色的 |
| 52 | flowers. | 鲜花。 |
| 53 | It's like no matter what internal weather and emotions I'm facing, these plants | 不管我面对的是什么内部天气和情绪 这些植物 |
| 54 | always just remain as a consistent neutral presence that appears at this time of year. | 永远保持中立,每年这个时候出现。 |
| 55 | No matter how sad I am or no matter what I'm thinking about, they're there. | 不管我有多伤心 也不管我在想什么 他们都在那里 |
| 56 | They're always | 他们总是 |
| 57 | there. | 这里 |
| 58 | It's like a promise. | 如是许愿. |
| 59 | I guess I wanted to talk to you guys about transformation and | 我想和你们谈谈转变和 |
| 60 | that feeling of coming to the same conclusion over and over again and that sort of frustration | 那种一次又一次地得出同样结论的感觉 那种挫折感 |
| 61 | that happens there. | 发生在那里。 |
| 62 | In my last video, You Have Time, I was really trying to emphasize that | 在我最后的视频"你有时间"中,我真的想强调 |
| 63 | good things take time. | 好事需要时间 |
| 64 | Even if you don't feel an immense amount of progress instantly working | 即使你没有感觉到 巨大的进步 立即工作 |
| 65 | towards a goal and a dream, it pieces itself together over time. | 向着一个目标 和一个梦想, 它逐渐地融为一体。 |
| 66 | And similarly, I'm at this | 同样,我在这个 |
| 67 | point of year now reflecting on what I'm trying to let go of and coming to these conclusions. | 一年的点 现在反思 我试图放手 并得出这些结论。 |
| 68 | And it can be hard to come to the same conclusion or realize you're still in the same place that | 很难得出同样的结论 或意识到你还在同一个地方 |
| 69 | you don't want to be. | 你不想成为。 |
| 70 | I wanted to have this conversation for you and for me to remember | 我想和你谈谈 让我记住 |
| 71 | that if you are seeking a change in anything in your life and you're not feeling dramatic shifts | 如果你想要改变你的生活 并且你没有感到戏剧性的转变 |
| 72 | or seeing extreme results, transformation is always happening. | 或看到极端的结果, 转变总是发生。 |
| 73 | And that's something that | 这件事情 |
| 74 | I've been struck with this mid-June is I am a different person than I was last year and the | 6月中旬我被打得头晕眼花 |
| 75 | year before that. | 这之前的一年。 |
| 76 | Even if it doesn't feel like I have made an infinite amount of progress, | 即使感觉我并没有取得无限进展 |
| 77 | I am reminding myself that change is undergoing, whether I like it or not. | 我提醒自己,无论我喜不喜欢,变革正在发生。 |
| 78 | And it's up to me. | 亦由我决定. |
| 79 | I can embody and embrace that change. | 我可以体现和拥抱这种变化。 |
| 80 | I can recognize it. | 我能认出来 |
| 81 | I can appreciate it. | 我可以欣赏它。 |
| 82 | I can realize that, you know, things are taking time and that's okay. | 我能意识到,你知道, 事情需要时间,没关系。 |
| 83 | The more that I make peace | 我越是和好 |
| 84 | with that. | 还有那个 |
| 85 | My best friend's birthday is actually June 15th in the middle of June and her and I have | 我最好的朋友的生日实际上是6月15日 6月中旬,她和我有一个 |
| 86 | been reflecting a lot on this idea of slow and steady wins the race. | 一直在思考这个 缓慢和稳定赢得比赛的想法 |
| 87 | The tortoise wins the race | 乌龟赢了比赛 |
| 88 | against the hare, you know, the story with the tortoise and the hare. | 对抗兔子,你知道, 的故事与乌龟和兔子。 |
| 89 | And it doesn't mean just | 这并不意味着 |
| 90 | sit there and do nothing, but it means that what we're working towards, we have to believe that | 坐在那什么都不做,但这意味着 我们正在努力,我们必须相信 |
| 91 | any bit of effort we put into that mentally, physically, every action is building up to | 我们付出的任何努力 精神,身体,每一个行动 正在建立到 |
| 92 | something. | 东西。 |
| 93 | And it is better not to live out of that rushing scarcity comparison mode and come | 最好不要活在 匆忙的稀缺比较模式之后 |
| 94 | from a place of knowing, hey, I am on this path. | 从一个地方知道, 嘿,我在这条路上。 |
| 95 | I'm going to continue to look for those answers, | 我将继续寻找这些答案, |
| 96 | ask for those answers and do everything I can each day. | 问这些答案,并尽我所能 每天。 |
| 97 | Even if that's not perfect, | 即使这还不够完美 |
| 98 | even if it's not the most monumental step you can take, the grandest risk that's available, | 即使这不是你能迈出的最伟大的一步 也是最危险的 |
| 99 | taking these little moments, these little steps, you are undergoing a transformation, | 这些小步骤 你正在经历一个转变 |
| 100 | especially if you do have a vision in mind or something you're working towards. | 特别是如果你真的有 想象力或你正在工作的东西。 |
| 101 | I feel as though the more we're able to implement patience and embody what we're looking to become, | 我觉得我们越能耐心 体现我们所期望的 |
| 102 | what we're trying to grow into, I think it's powerful to take a second to remember where | 我们试图成长的, 我认为它的力量 花一秒钟 记住在哪里 |
| 103 | we're going and realize that we are on the path there. | 我们要去 并意识到,我们是在道路上在那里。 |
| 104 | We don't need to rush. | 我们不需要匆忙。 |
| 105 | We don't need to | 我们不需要 |
| 106 | run. | 运行。 |
| 107 | Somebody's not going to take it before us. | 有人不会抢在我们面前的 |
| 108 | You know, you don't need to do it exactly like this | 你知道,你不需要这样做 完全像这样 |
| 109 | person did or feel bad that you're not at this place. | 人曾经或觉得 难过你没有在这里。 |
| 110 | Like it's happening. | 如是现相. |
| 111 | It might be happening | 可能会发生 |
| 112 | in layers. | 分层 |
| 113 | It might be happening throughout the years. | 这可能发生在这些年。 |
| 114 | It might be happening in small steps, | 它可能发生在小步, |
| 115 | but it is happening. | 但它正在发生。 |
| 116 | We are growing. | 我们正在成长。 |
| 117 | As we have this conversation right now, | 我们现在有谈话 |
| 118 | we're growing and this will lead us to a different place. | 我们正在成长,这将导致我们走向另一个地方。 |
| 119 | This spring slash summer, | 这个春天的夏天, |
| 120 | there have been so many caterpillars just outside my door and they have been munching on this passion | 我门外有这么多毛毛虫 他们一直追寻着这种激情 |
| 121 | flower vine. | 花藤(原变种). |
| 122 | There are so many of them. | 其数甚众. |
| 123 | There are tons of chrysalises, chrysolei, chrysalis. | 分布于中国大陆的锡金,锡金,锡金,锡金,锡金,锡金,锡金,锡金,锡金,锡金,锡金,锡金,锡金,锡金,锡金,锡金,锡金,锡金,锡金,锡金,锡金,锡金,锡金,锡金,锡金,锡金,锡金,锡金,锡金,锡金,锡金,锡金,锡金,锡金,锡金,锡金,锡金,锡金金,锡金,锡金,锡金,锡金,锡金,锡金,锡,锡金,锡金,锡金,锡金,锡金,锡金,锡金,锡金,锡,锡金,锡金,锡金,锡,锡金,锡,锡,锡,锡,锡,锡,锡金,锡,锡,锡,锡金,锡金,锡,锡金,锡金,锡,锡金,锡,锡,锡,锡,锡,锡,锡,锡,锡金,锡,锡,锡金,锡,锡,锡金 |
| 124 | There | 那边 |
| 125 | are many chrysalises. | 有很多鸡尾酒 |
| 126 | I see a chrysalis in almost every single spot whenever I walk outside | 当我走出去时,我几乎每个地方都看到一朵菊花 |
| 127 | and I've been lucky enough to see the butterflies come out and they're enjoying the garden right | 我很幸运看到蝴蝶出来 他们喜欢花园 |
| 128 | around my door. | 绕着我的门 |
| 129 | I feel like such a magical lucky fairy when I walk out the door and all these | 我走出门的时候 感觉就像一个神奇的幸运仙子 |
| 130 | butterflies are flying, but they've taught me a lesson. | 蝴蝶在飞,但是它们教会了我一个教训. |
| 131 | There's been a lot of storms this June, | 今年六月暴风雨频繁 |
| 132 | like there usually are here where I live. | 就像我通常住的地方一样 |
| 133 | A lot of thunderstorms, the flowers coming out, and | 很多雷暴,花朵涌出来, |
| 134 | I've watched each chrysalis withstand these crazy night storms and they sort of shut themselves away | 我看着每个克赖萨利人 承受着这些疯狂的夜晚风暴 他们把自己关了起来 |
| 135 | and hide and go inward for however long they need to to make this transformation. | 并躲起来,然后潜入其中 无论他们需要多久才能实现这种转变。 |
| 136 | A few of them have | 有几个 |
| 137 | come out with damaged wings and were not able to fly and sadly didn't make it. | 带着受损的翅膀出来 无法飞翔 可惜没能成功 |
| 138 | And my neighbor and | 我的邻居 |
| 139 | I, we've been observing all of these and we saw one coming out of the chrysalis just yesterday | 我,我们一直在观察所有这些, 我们看见一个出来 克里斯利就在昨天 |
| 140 | and he was noticing that the wing was a little bit damaged in the unfurling process and he was | 他注意到机翼在拆卸过程中有一点损坏,他当时正在 |
| 141 | kind of lacking hope for the butterfly saying, you know, this chrysalis in particular was built | 蝴蝶缺乏希望, 说,你知道, 这个crysalis 特别建造 |
| 142 | on not a very stable foundation and there's been storms and usually during the unfurling process | 在不稳定的地基上 暴风雨和通常在断层过程中 |
| 143 | that's when you can see if the wing is going to make it or not. | 这时,你可以看到翅膀是要去做与否。 |
| 144 | And this one was looking like | 这个看起来就像 |
| 145 | it might not make it. | 它可能不会成功。 |
| 146 | It's like that one was just overwhelmed with the urge to transform. | 这就像一个只是被 充满了变革的冲动。 |
| 147 | Yeah. | 对 |
| 148 | Because it decided to transform on us, on something that's not like secured. | 因为它决定改变在我们身上 改变一些不像安全的东西 |
| 149 | Because you know, right, solid, all these are you've seen over here are all solid, right? | 因为你知道的,是的,扎实的, 所有这些你已经看到 在这里都是扎实的,对不对? |
| 150 | Yeah, so that's the difference I'm saying, like it's on something that like moves. | 是啊,所以这就是我所说的不同, 就像它在的东西喜欢移动。 |
| 151 | Oh look, a visit. | 哦,看,一个拜访。 |
| 152 | Like everyone's here, you know. | 就像每个人都在这里,你知道的。 |
| 153 | If that crumple doesn't fix, it's not going to fly. | 如果那个碎屑不修,它不会飞. |
| 154 | And if it already kind of had that experience, like it could have, yeah. | 如果它已经有那种经历, 像它可以,是的。 |
| 155 | How could it get fixed | 怎么会修好? |
| 156 | though? | 不过? |
| 157 | It just seemed like they might already be dry. | 看起来他们可能已经干枯了 |
| 158 | This little butterfly may not be eating | 这只小蝴蝶可能不会吃 |
| 159 | the ground. | 在地面上。 |
| 160 | Just that crazy rainstorm the other night. | 那天晚上那场狂风暴雨 |
| 161 | I'm like, I wonder how it was holding up | и稱 иぃ笵或ㄆ |
| 162 | in the midst of that one. | 在那个中间。 |
| 163 | Something that, like you said, not secure. | 就像你说的 不安全的东西 |
| 164 | Feed this thing nectar and keep it alive, but it's never going to have whatever it has to be able to | 吃这个东西的花蜜,保持它的生命, 但是它永远不会有什么 它必须能够 |
| 165 | find. | 寻找。 |
| 166 | I haven't told you guys this yet, but I have been gearing up for a very big move. | 我还没跟你们说过 但我已经准备了一个大动作 |
| 167 | A move to | 移动到 |
| 168 | another country. | 另一个国家。 |
| 169 | My dream city. | 我的梦想之城 |
| 170 | I will be moving to London in two weeks. | 我两周后要搬去伦敦 |
| 171 | I might already, no, | 我可能已经,没有, |
| 172 | I don't think I'll already be there by the time you see this, but I'm moving in July. | 我不认为你看到这个的时候我已经到了 但我要在7月搬去 |
| 173 | It's not a | 这不是一个 |
| 174 | new idea or aspiration. | 新的想法或愿望。 |
| 175 | It's something that I have wanted since I was 15. | 这是我从15岁起就想要的 |
| 176 | I feel very grateful to | 我非常感谢 |
| 177 | have traveled there multiple times. | 去过很多次了 |
| 178 | Some of my favorite videos on my channel are when I'm in | 我最喜欢的一些视频在我的频道 当我在 |
| 179 | London and I felt extremely inspired and excited being there. | 伦敦和我感到非常鼓舞和兴奋 |
| 180 | And I'm deciding to take this journey | 我决定走这条路 |
| 181 | to live there for a period of time. | 在那里生活一段时间。 |
| 182 | And it has been sort of petrifying. | 它一直有点吓人。 |
| 183 | I won't lie. | 我不会撒谎的 |
| 184 | Dreaming, | 梦中 |
| 185 | we've talked about this before, to long or to live. | 我们以前说过,要活还是要活 |
| 186 | Dreaming and longing for something is so | 梦想和渴望就是如此 |
| 187 | much more fun sometimes than actually adjusting to the change. | 有时候比适应变化更有趣 |
| 188 | Coming to terms with the good, the bad, | 来与好,坏, |
| 189 | the ugly of goodbyes and making new choices that bring us to new places. | 丑陋的告别 和做出新的选择 带给我们新的地方。 |
| 190 | It's fun to long | 好久不见 |
| 191 | for these changes, but to actually go through the transformation of making it happen. | 为了这些变化, 但实际上要经历变革 使它发生。 |
| 192 | It's scary. | 令人惊骇. |
| 193 | It's so scary to the point that I have been in my chrysalis. | 这太可怕了,以至于我一直在我的crysalis。 |
| 194 | I've been hiding. | 我一直躲着 |
| 195 | I've been in a state | 我去过一个州 |
| 196 | of fear and like, can I really do this? | 恐惧和喜欢, 我真的可以做到这一点? |
| 197 | Yes, I dream of opening my wings and flying to a far away | 是的,我梦想打开翅膀飞到很远的地方 |
| 198 | place and this freedom and discovery and growth, but can I really do it? | 自由 发现 成长 但我真的可以吗? |
| 199 | That has been the question | 这就是问题所在 |
| 200 | in the back of my mind for years and years. | 在我脑后多年。 |
| 201 | This is everything to me. | 这是一切对我来说。 |
| 202 | But when I finally | 但当我终于 |
| 203 | save enough money or plan for it to happen or organize the move, that's when all of the fear | 省下足够的钱 或计划它发生 或组织移动, 那时所有的恐惧 |
| 204 | sets in and the doubt and the, oh, you know what, actually let me catastrophize this. | 设置和怀疑, 和,哦,你知道的, 实际上,让我去灾难这一点。 |
| 205 | No, worst case | 不,最坏的情况 |
| 206 | scenario is going to happen. | 情况将会发生。 |
| 207 | So I can't live out my dream. | 所以我不能活出我的梦想。 |
| 208 | I don't know if you guys experienced this, | 我不知道你们有没有经历过 |
| 209 | but it's something that I've been dealing with now for quite a while of wanting to embody my | 但它是我一直在处理的东西 现在相当一段时间 想体现我的 |
| 210 | growth and my dreams, but feeling scared to do so and being able to fantasize about growing strong | 成长和我的梦想,但感觉害怕这样做, 并且能够幻想成长的强壮 |
| 211 | and independent enough to do something like this. | 独立到可以做这种事 |
| 212 | But in reality, having doubt about actually going | 但实际上,对实际去的怀疑 |
| 213 | out into the world and making it happen, you know, reality is different from the fantasy. | 要知道,现实与幻想不同 |
| 214 | And so when | 所以当 |
| 215 | we were looking at this little butterfly coming out of its chrysalis, and my neighbor was so | 我们正看着这只小蝴蝶 从它的克里萨利, 我的邻居是如此 |
| 216 | certain that it wouldn't be able to fly because it built its chrysalis on an unstable foundation, | 确信它不会飞,因为它在不稳定的基础上 建造了它的食物, |
| 217 | it made me think about this upcoming journey. | 让我想起了即将来临的旅程 |
| 218 | And it made me think about how I didn't have the most | 这让我想到我有多没有 |
| 219 | stable upbringing. | 稳定成长。 |
| 220 | I felt like things were quite rocky and insecure at times. | 我有时觉得事情很不稳定和不安全 |
| 221 | And I was building | 我当时正在建造 |
| 222 | my foundation in that environment and in those sort of behavioral patterns of things being a | 我在这个环境中的根基 以及那种行为模式 事物是一个 |
| 223 | bit not so stable or not really knowing what's coming next. | 有点不太稳定 或不知道接下来会发生什么 |
| 224 | And I've tried to do the work and | 我试图做这个工作 |
| 225 | build stability for myself, but we all know that that can be really challenging and we need support | 为自己建立稳定,但我们都知道,这可能确实具有挑战性,我们需要支持 |
| 226 | and we need a support system and structure. | 我们需要一个支持系统和结构。 |
| 227 | And so to build a foundation on something not stable | 为了在不稳定的东西上打下基础 |
| 228 | and attempt to grow from that, it can be hard. | 并试图从中成长, 它可能很难。 |
| 229 | And when we were looking at this chrysalis and | 当我们看着这个克丽萨里斯和 |
| 230 | thinking the wing was damaged, I was like, no, no, no, no, I really want this butterfly to be able | 以为翅膀受损了 我真的希望这只蝴蝶能够 |
| 231 | to fly. | 飞起来 |
| 232 | Even if it built its chrysalis on an unstable foundation, it still deserves a chance. | 即使它在不稳定的基础上建立了其菊花,它仍然值得一个机会. |
| 233 | Maybe it will make it. | 也许它会成功。 |
| 234 | And we kind of just left it. | 我们只是离开了它。 |
| 235 | I was working outside all day yesterday, | 我昨天整天在外面工作, 工作, |
| 236 | so I kind of was peeking at the butterfly, seeing it come out a little bit more and more. | 所以我在偷看蝴蝶 看着蝴蝶越发露出来 |
| 237 | And then finally, almost towards the evening time, I was walking around the garden and I saw that the | 最后,几乎在傍晚的时候,我走在花园周围,我看到 |
| 238 | butterfly had moved. | 蝴蝶动了 |
| 239 | It hadn't flown, but it had moved out of the chrysalis and a little bit closer | 它没有飞,但它已经移动出 克里斯利和一点点接近 |
| 240 | to the flowers. | 献给花朵 |
| 241 | And I was so excited looking at it, but it looked like it was still kind of, | 我非常兴奋地看着它, 但看起来它还是有点, |
| 242 | you know, struggling to move. | 你知道,挣扎移动。 |
| 243 | So I brought it a little flower to drink from and then my neighbor | 我带了一小朵花来喝酒 然后是我的邻居 |
| 244 | ended up setting it onto a bush nearby. | 最终在附近的灌木丛上布置了它. |
| 245 | We could still see that the wing was not totally unfurled | 我们还能看到机翼没有完全脱落 |
| 246 | yet. | 还没有。 |
| 247 | It didn't look super promising, but we were trying to give it some food, some shelter, maybe | 它看起来并不大有希望, 但我们试图给它一些食物, 一些避难所,也许 |
| 248 | perk it up a little bit. | 再加点油 |
| 249 | Just with a little bit of belief and support, the butterfly flew away. | 有了一点点的信念和支持,蝴蝶飞走了. |
| 250 | It flew off of my neighbor's finger and flew into the garden. | 它从我邻居的手指上飞下来,飞进了花园. |
| 251 | I'll believe in you, but you're gonna have to eat. | 我会相信你 但你得吃东西 |
| 252 | You're gonna have to eat. | 须'食. |
| 253 | And it could fly. | 它会飞的 |
| 254 | Even with the wing being a little wonky, it was still unfurling. | 即使机翼有点怪异,它还是没有起伏。 |
| 255 | It was coming out. | 它出来了。 |
| 256 | You gotta eat. | 你必须吃东西。 |
| 257 | You can stay here the night. | 你可以在这里过夜。 |
| 258 | It's a pretty chill spot, but you gotta eat. | 这是一个相当寒冷的地方, 但你必须吃。 |
| 259 | And to get to witness that entire life cycle right on my doorstep is a huge inspiration to me, | 为了亲眼目睹 整个生命周期 在我的门阶上 是巨大的灵感给我, |
| 260 | truly. | 确实 |
| 261 | To make this huge step, this leap, to take this risk, I've felt so scared about coming from | 为了迈出这一大步,这一跃进,为了承担这个风险,我对来自 |
| 262 | a broken foundation or like my wings are not going to be able to send me off and that I won't be able | 一个破碎的地基,或者像我的翅膀 将无法送我离开,我将无法 |
| 263 | to do it myself and, you know, just all these fears holding me back. | 要自己做,你知道, 只是所有这些恐惧 拖住我。 |
| 264 | I've sort of unintentionally used | 我有点无意中利用了 |
| 265 | this whole past year to be in my chrysalis, an attempt to heal, to rest, to transform. | 这整年都在我的菊花, 试图治愈,休息,改造。 |
| 266 | Like I said, | 就像我说的, |
| 267 | June, having these realizations sort of reevaluating my life and my decisions, | June, 有了这些认识 有点重估我的生活和决定, |
| 268 | I felt like, am I really making progress? | 我觉得,我真的进步了吗? |
| 269 | Am I just, you know, resting, hiding? | 我只是,你知道,休息,隐藏? |
| 270 | Am I really doing | 我真的这样做 |
| 271 | enough? | 够了吗? |
| 272 | Am I really taking enough action? | 我是否真的采取足够的行动? |
| 273 | Could I be doing more? | 我可以做更多吗? |
| 274 | You know, this constant sort of | 你知道,这种常态 |
| 275 | pressure that maybe society puts on us, that we put on ourselves. | 也许社会给我们带来的压力 我们给自己带来的压力 |
| 276 | If we're, you know, entrepreneurial, | 如果我们,你知道,企业, |
| 277 | we're our own bosses and we feel like maybe we could be pushing ourselves to do more. | 我们是我们的老板,我们觉得 也许我们可以推动自己做更多。 |
| 278 | Where's | 何处 |
| 279 | the balance? | 平衡吗? |
| 280 | I've struggled a lot with these thoughts, but I've also let myself kind of come | 我为这些想法苦苦挣扎 但我也让自己来了 |
| 281 | inward and rest. | 向内休息 |
| 282 | There have been lots of storms and I've been taking my time to heal and feeling | 暴风雨很多,我花时间去疗伤 |
| 283 | like nothing's happening, nothing's happening. | 就像什么都没有发生,什么都没有发生。 |
| 284 | What's going on? | 这是怎么回事? |
| 285 | Am I doing enough? | 我做够了吗? |
| 286 | And then | 礛 |
| 287 | finally there's this moment, and it doesn't happen all at once, but this moment of breaking out, | 终于有这一刻了, 并且它不是一次全部发生, 但这一刻爆发, |
| 288 | taking the leap, taking the jump, testing the wings, learning to fly, and just to see all these | 跳跃 跳跃 测试翅膀 学会飞翔 |
| 289 | caterpillars doing that ever so naturally right outside my door. | 毛毛虫在我家门外自然地会这么做 |
| 290 | They're showing me it's possible | 他们告诉我这是可能的 |
| 291 | that this graceful, intricate machinery of these wings, it can take place only if they do go inward, | 这种优雅,复杂的机械 这些翅膀,只有它们进入, |
| 292 | build that safety. | 建立安全。 |
| 293 | Maybe it's not even built on the most stable foundation, but going inwards, | 也许它甚至不是建立在最稳定的基础上, 但去向内, |
| 294 | taking a second, hunkering down, can bring transformation. | 花一秒钟,狩猎下来, 可以带来转变。 |
| 295 | And I'm resonating with that | 我对这个有共鸣 |
| 296 | cycle because I feel like I'm at a point now, in the middle of June this summer, | 循环,因为我觉得我现在 在一个点, 今年夏天的六月中旬, |
| 297 | realizing I am in the same city. | 我意识到我在同一座城市 |
| 298 | I am contemplating the same decisions or goodbyes, | 我在考虑同样的决定或再见, |
| 299 | but I am a different version of myself. | 但我是一个不同的版本我自己。 |
| 300 | I am inherently transforming. | 我内在的转变。 |
| 301 | All of that has led me | 所有这一切让我 |
| 302 | to a point where now I'm taking the biggest risk I ever have, the biggest leap. | 现在我要冒最大的风险 最大的飞跃 |
| 303 | I'm literally, | 我从字面上说 |
| 304 | just speaking of wings, I've been thinking a lot about airplane machinery and how I'm going to | 说到翅膀,我一直在想飞机机械 和我要如何 |
| 305 | on a long 10-hour flight and it's just going to take me somewhere like it's no problem. | 搭10小时长的班机 它会带我到一个没问题的地方 |
| 306 | There's | 还有 |
| 307 | a line to a poem that I have that you guys have not heard, and it's similarly to a jet plane, | 我有一首诗的台词 你们没听过 和飞机差不多 |
| 308 | all that metal and machine flying my heart across the world like it doesn't mean a thing. | 所有那些金属和机器 飞遍我的心脏 像它不意味着什么。 |
| 309 | And we're lucky, right? | 我们很幸运,对吧? |
| 310 | We're human beings. | 我们是人类 |
| 311 | We don't have to grow wings like butterflies | 我们不需要像蝴蝶一样长翅膀 |
| 312 | and make a chrysalis and all these things, but I do think we resemble that transformation process | 和做一个crysalis 和所有这些东西, 但我确实认为我们 相似的转变过程 |
| 313 | in how, you know, good things take time. | 如何,你知道,好的事情需要时间。 |
| 314 | We've talked about it before, but transformation is | 我们以前谈过,但转变是 |
| 315 | taking place regardless, even when we're going inward, resting. | 不管发生什么,即使我们进去休息 |
| 316 | If you have a goal or an | 如果你有一个目标或一个 |
| 317 | intention, something you're working towards, productivity doesn't always look like getting | 意图,你正在争取的东西, 生产力并不总是看起来像得到 |
| 318 | every single thing on your checklist checked off. | 单子上的每件事都检查过了 |
| 319 | Sometimes it looks like making sure you're eating | 有时候,它看起来像确保 你吃 |
| 320 | enough, making sure you're sleeping enough, and these are privileges in our modern world, but | 足够,确保你睡够了, 这些是我们现代世界的特权,但 |
| 321 | these are things that I've felt a bit selfish taking time for these days. | 这些事我最近觉得有点自私 |
| 322 | I've felt a lack of | 我感到没有 |
| 323 | productivity or like I'm being selfish with my time, but I know just based on the things that | 生产力或像我自私 与我的时间, 但我只知道根据的东西 |
| 324 | I'm saying goodbye to and the decisions that I've made that I need some time to heal, to grieve, | 我在说再见 以及我所做的决定 我需要一些时间来治愈 悲伤 |
| 325 | to transform, and become a new version of myself that I haven't met yet. | 变成我还没有见过的新版本 |
| 326 | This whole middle of June | 这整个六月中旬 |
| 327 | thing that I keep talking about, it feels like a place where I've come to the same conclusion so | 我不停地谈论的事情, 感觉就像一个我得出同样结论的地方, |
| 328 | many times, just to give you guys a little bit of personal insight. | 很多次,只是为了给大家一点个人见解 |
| 329 | I live in the city that I grew | 我住在我成长的城市 |
| 330 | up in. | 上来 |
| 331 | I had a lot of long-lasting relationships, friendships, attachments to my environment, | 我有很多长久的关系 友谊 和我的感情 |
| 332 | a lot of things that I am so eternally grateful for and have made me the person I am today, | 许多我永远感激的东西 让我成为今天的人 |
| 333 | but also a lot of things that I know that I've outgrown, and it can be very scary to come to | 但也有很多事情我知道 我已经长大了, 它可能非常可怕来到 |
| 334 | that conclusion that I've outgrown this or I'm ready for a new step, I'm ready to take the next | 这个结论,我已经超过这个 或者我已经准备好一个新的步骤, 我准备采取下一个 |
| 335 | leap. | 跳跃。 |
| 336 | It's taken me a long time to actually prepare to take that leap, if that makes sense. | 我花了很长的时间来准备跳跃 如果有道理的话 |
| 337 | I haven't even taken it yet, I'm about to. | 我还没拿呢,我马上就要拿了 |
| 338 | It's taken me years to say goodbye to certain things | 我花了好几年时间跟某些事情说再见 |
| 339 | that I've outgrown, and that's what I- there's a poem of mine called Heartbroken in the Middle of | 我成长得超乎寻常 中间有首诗叫"心碎" |
| 340 | June, and this is a very important poem to me, a very important piece of work that I have made, | 6月,这是我的一首非常重要的诗 我做了一件非常重要的作品, |
| 341 | and it's the third poem on my poetry collection. | 这是我诗集的第三首诗 |
| 342 | You can listen to it anywhere, Spotify, Apple | 你可以在任何地方听,Spotify,苹果 |
| 343 | Music, and you will be able to read it in your hands very soon, more on that soon. | 音乐,你很快就能在手中读到, 更多关于这个。 |
| 344 | But listening, | 但听着, |
| 345 | it's a spoken word poetry album, sort of a unique way to consume poetry. | 是一种口语诗歌专辑 一种独特的诗歌消费方式 |
| 346 | It's like an ambient story | 这就像一个环境故事 |
| 347 | soundscape. | 风景。 |
| 348 | I recommend you listen with headphones, go to the park, lay down, wherever you want to | 我建议你用耳机听, 去公园,躺下,无论你想在哪里 |
| 349 | listen to it, but it's a very- it's an immersive experience. | 听它,但它是一个非常 - 这是一个浸润的经验。 |
| 350 | The third poem in that collection is | 该集的第三首诗是 |
| 351 | Heartbroken in the Middle of June. | 六月中心断. |
| 352 | I've worked very hard on a video, a recitation, sort of like | 我在录影带、朗诵片上很努力 |
| 353 | a music video, if you will. | 音乐录像,如果你愿意的话。 |
| 354 | It was directed and shot and edited by me, so it has taken me a very | 由我导演、拍摄和编辑, |
| 355 | long time to get it out there, but it is on my Patreon now. | 很久没见了,但现在在我的帕特伦身上了 |
| 356 | You can go watch it, I've worked | 你可以去看,我已经工作了 |
| 357 | very hard on it. | 很难 |
| 358 | You can listen to the poem completely for free wherever you stream your | 你可以免费听这首诗 无论你流到哪里 |
| 359 | music, but if you would like to see the visuals alongside it, I recommend joining the Patreon. | 音乐,但如果你想看到视觉 同时,我建议加入帕特伦。 |
| 360 | These poetry videos will be a part of my library and creations forever, they mean the world to me. | 这些诗歌录像将永远成为我图书馆和创作的一部分,它们对我来说意味着世界。 |
| 361 | That poem, Heartbroken in the Middle of June, was inspired by this feeling. | 那首诗"六月中心碎",就是受这种感觉的启发. |
| 362 | It was based on coming | 这是基于来 |
| 363 | {\fn黑体\fs22\bord1\shad0\3aHBE\4aH00\fscx67\fscy66\2cHFFFFFF\3cH808080}我总是觉得自己没学过 也没进步 | |
| 364 | changing. | 改变。 |
| 365 | But each one of those Junes, I couldn't see it in the moment, but I was transforming, | 但是,每一个这些Junes, 我看不到它在那一刻, 但我正在改变, |
| 366 | even if it was frustrating. | 即使它令人沮丧。 |
| 367 | I probably could have saved myself and made decisions faster or | 我也许可以拯救自己 并做出更快的决定 |
| 368 | a little bit more harshly, but I have had a hard time. | 有点苛刻,但我有一个困难的时间。 |
| 369 | I caught myself there, you see what I did? | 我发现自己在那里, 你知道我做了什么? |
| 370 | Instead of saying, I do have a hard time, I'm not going to say that, I'm going to say I have had a | 而不是说,我有一个困难的时间, 我不会说,我要说我有一个 |
| 371 | hard time and I'm working through that. | 困难的时间,我正在工作 通过。 |
| 372 | I have had a tricky time in the past getting accompanied | 过去我有过一段难熬的时光 |
| 373 | to change and accepting change in my life, being able to embody that change and feel confident | 改变和接受我生活中的改变, 能够体现这种改变和自信 |
| 374 | moving forward into uncharted territories, whether that means letting a relationship go or | 进入未知的领地 无论这意味着放弃关系 |
| 375 | leaving my city behind, all these things. | 离开我的城市,所有的东西。 |
| 376 | I was coming to that conclusion, I wanted to leave, | 我得出这个结论 我想离开 |
| 377 | I wanted to get up, I wanted to change, and it was so frustrating to come back to that every single | 我想起来,我想改变, 和它是如此令人沮丧 回到每一个 |
| 378 | year and feel ashamed of not making enough change. | 并感到羞愧 没有足够的改变。 |
| 379 | But now, looking back at it with a different | 但是现在,用不同的眼光回顾一下 |
| 380 | perspective and having made some significant change in my life and still maybe trying to | 并且对我的生活做了一些重大改变 并且仍然可能试图 |
| 381 | some of the things that I've outgrown, I can see now that I needed every single one of those | 有些东西,我已经超越了, 现在我可以看到,我需要所有的东西 |
| 382 | Junes to get to this one, to be able to make this leap and to transform in this way. | 六月到此,能使此飞跃,以此变形. |
| 383 | Even though I | 虽然我 |
| 384 | didn't realize it, every year was a layer of understanding that I had to come to, even if it | 没有意识到,每年是 一层理解,我不得不来,即使它 |
| 385 | felt repetitive. | 感觉重复。 |
| 386 | It was slowly granting me the motivation each time to change a little more, | 它慢慢地给了我动力 每次改变一点点, |
| 387 | push myself a little more, it was revealing my emotions to me a little bit more, and it was | 更让我的情绪暴露在心上 |
| 388 | sometimes an agonizing long process, even just wanting to make this move for the past 10 years | 有时是一个痛苦的漫长过程, 甚至只是想做这个举动 在过去的十年 |
| 389 | of my life, but not being financially able to or being too young or being too scared to move away | 我的生命,但是没有经济能力 或太年轻 或太害怕搬走 |
| 390 | from my family and everything I know. | 从我的家人和我知道的一切。 |
| 391 | I had to have those fears every year, I had to come back | 我每年都有恐惧,我必须回来 |
| 392 | to those conclusions every year because it allowed me to work through them a little bit more each | 我每年都能从这些结论中得出一些结论,因为这样我就能通过这些结论,使每个结论稍多一点。 |
| 393 | year, to see them as a slightly older and wiser version of myself, to get to a point of clarity, | 年,把他们看成一个 稍老,更明智的版本 我,得到一个清晰点, |
| 394 | to get to a point of understanding. | 以获得一个理解点。 |
| 395 | And yes, maybe it took a long time, but that's what I needed to | 是的,也许花了很长时间, 但我需要的就是 |
| 396 | make this transformation, to be pushed to this change. | 进行这种转变, 来推动这种变化。 |
| 397 | And that's how long I was in my Chrysalis | 这就是我在克里萨利斯待了多久 |
| 398 | for, if we're going back to this butterfly metaphor, you know? | 因为,如果我们要回到这个蝴蝶比喻,你知道吗? |
| 399 | They can't, they don't know how | 他们不能,他们不知道如何 |
| 400 | long they're gonna be in there. | 很久了,他们会在那里。 |
| 401 | They're gonna be in there for the exact right amount of time, | 他们会在那里 准确的时间, |
| 402 | for the machinery of their wings to properly develop and send them off as a new version. | 他们的机翼的机器 能够正确开发 并发送它们作为一个新版本。 |
| 403 | And so I guess I just wanted to say that if you feel frustrated, like you're coming to the same | 所以我想说,如果你感到沮丧, 就像你来到同样的 |
| 404 | conclusions over and over again, maybe there's a reason for that. | 一次又一次的结论,也许有原因。 |
| 405 | Maybe to make that change, | 也许是为了改变 |
| 406 | you need to be reminded of what you're sitting with. | 你需要被提醒 你坐在一起。 |
| 407 | I'm not always the best at letting go, | 我并不总是最好的 放手, |
| 408 | and I tend to romanticize the good parts and want to hold on despite maybe things that are showing | 我倾向于浪漫的好部分 并想坚持下去 尽管也许事情正在显示 |
| 409 | me it's not very healthy or it's something that I would be better off letting go. | 我不太健康,否则我最好放手 |
| 410 | It has been a | 这是个 |
| 411 | long, hard process of letting go, but I needed to come to that conclusion multiple times before I | 漫长而艰难的放手的过程, 但我需要得出这个结论 多次之前,我 |
| 412 | was able to do so. | 能够做到这一点。 |
| 413 | And that's okay. | 这没关系。 |
| 414 | It's okay if things take time. | 事情需要时间就没事了 |
| 415 | It's okay that we can't always | 没关系,我们不能总是这样 |
| 416 | tell when transformation is happening, but to know that it is, even whenever we're coming to | 告诉何时发生转变, 但知道它是,即使我们来 |
| 417 | the same conclusions and we feel like we haven't made progress, every single that moment of | 同样的结论,我们觉得 我们没有取得进步, 每一刻, |
| 418 | awareness that you've come to the same conclusion is progress. | 知道你得出同样的结论 就是进步 |
| 419 | Realizing that you're unhappy with | 知道你很不高兴 |
| 420 | something, even if it takes multiple times, is pushing you to transform. | 东西,即使它需要多次, 正在推动你转变。 |
| 421 | Sometimes we have to be | 有时候我们必须 |
| 422 | reminded of why we're doing something over and over again to get enough courage to do it. | 提醒大家为什么我们一遍又一遍地做一些事情,以获得足够的勇气去做. |
| 423 | And I | 还有我 |
| 424 | don't think we always have to. | 别以为我们总得这么做 |
| 425 | I think some people do have the gift of knowing their worth or they | 我觉得有些人确实有天赋 知道自己的价值或他们 |
| 426 | know it's going to be painful, but I have to let this go. | 我知道这会很痛苦 但我必须放手 |
| 427 | And maybe some people do not draw it out | 也许有些人不会画出来 |
| 428 | and it's not as dramatic and ongoing. | 和它没有 戏剧性和持续。 |
| 429 | And I hope to learn how to be more like that and not be so | 我希望学会如何更像那样而不是这样 |
| 430 | afraid of change, but it has taken me a long time to grow to this point. | 害怕变化,但是我花了很长时间才成长到现在。 |
| 431 | And I'm finding peace with | 而我却在寻找和平 |
| 432 | that and I'm being okay with that and I'm allowing the butterflies to inspire me in that. | 我同意,我允许蝴蝶 激励我。 |
| 433 | I'm going | и璶ǐ |
| 434 | to read you guys a little entry from my diary. | 从我的日记里读到一个小条目 |
| 435 | I said, it can take a long time to learn a lesson, | 我说,这需要很长时间来吸取教训, |
| 436 | and that is okay. | 这没关系。 |
| 437 | I can feel the pages turning, the fire catching. | 我能感觉到页面的翻转, 火灾的赶上。 |
| 438 | There are chrysalis growing | 菊花在生长 |
| 439 | on the passionflower vine my neighbor strung above he and I's doorway. | 在激情花朵的藤蔓上 我邻居在他和我在门口 |
| 440 | The caterpillars ate most of | 毛毛虫吃的大部分东西 |
| 441 | 藤ine. | |
| 442 | Butterflies are landing on my doorstep. | 蝴蝶在我门口降落 |
| 443 | Small ants and some large ones with wings race | 小蚂蚁和有翅膀的大蚂蚁 |
| 444 | up and down the tree bark outside my bedroom window. | 上下树皮 在我的卧室窗外。 |
| 445 | Lots of change. | 有很多变化。 |
| 446 | Metamorphosis. | 变形. |
| 447 | Wheels turning | 轮子转动 |
| 448 | in real time. | 在实时。 |
| 449 | Wings and their ancient, intricate machinery produced right outside in the garden. | 翅膀和它们的古老复杂机械 就在花园外面生产 |
| 450 | Contemplating endings, beginnings, and trying to solve the in-between that is already taking place, | 争吵的结局,开始, 并试图解决已经发生的中间, |
| 451 | a baby fawn catches my eye from outside the window. | 一只小鹿从窗外吸引我的眼睛 |
| 452 | It nurses on its mother as she eats | 它在母亲吃东西时照顾她 |
| 453 | low-hanging leaves. | 低挂叶. |
| 454 | Hummingbirds glistening in a blink, you can barely catch them. | 蜂鸟闪闪发光 你几乎抓不到它们 |
| 455 | Like fairies, | 就像仙女一样 |
| 456 | gentle spirits that live amongst the pomegranate tree. | 住在石榴树里的温柔的灵魂 |
| 457 | Leaving gifts of the garden upon my | 把花园的礼物留给我 |
| 458 | doorstep. | 门阶。 |
| 459 | Spearmint. | 斯皮尔明特. |
| 460 | 紫 flower花. | |
| 461 | Sage. | 贤曰. |
| 462 | The exact presences I didn't even know that I needed. | 我什至不知道我所需要的具体存在。 |
| 463 | Quiet. | 安静 |
| 464 | Demanding nothing. | 要求什么也没有。 |
| 465 | Providing an offering. | 提供礼物。 |
| 466 | That's all the deer ask, too, for a quiet, | 鹿也只要求安静 |
| 467 | safe offering. | 安全提供。 |
| 468 | My best friend's birthday is in the middle of June. | 我最好的朋友的生日是六月中节. |
| 469 | There was a thrashing | 发生了一阵打斗 |
| 470 | thunderstorm the night of. | 霹雳夜. |
| 471 | This is a repeated sensation I've felt for a long time, living in | 我很久没感觉到这种感觉了 |
| 472 | Texas. | 德克萨斯州。 |
| 473 | Sad and heartbroken over the same people. | 悲伤和伤心地为同一个人。 |
| 474 | It comes to a head as the days get hotter. | 日子越热,头就越热 |
| 475 | Something about the sweltering heat cracks something open. | 捕捉的热量会打开一些东西 |
| 476 | The scalding combustion of | 正在燃烧 |
| 477 | all left unsaid. | 所有未说。 |
| 478 | The feelings that just cannot seem to find their way out through the tongue, | 那种感觉似乎无法通过舌头找到出路 |
| 479 | just sitting until they are sweat out, forced by the season's perspiration. | 一直坐着直到汗出 被季节的冲动所逼 |
| 480 | Old truths drying up | 古老的真理逐渐消失 |
| 481 | the concrete. | 混凝土。 |
| 482 | How many times must one sweat out the same truth until they decide to do something | 在他们决定做点什么之前 多少次必须出同样的真话 |
| 483 | with it? | 用它吗? |
| 484 | I had come to the same conclusion multiple summers in a row, yet felt like each | 我曾经连续多个夏天得出同样的结论 但感觉就像每个夏天 |
| 485 | time was a layer of truth I must learn to accept. | 时间是我必须学会接受的真相 |
| 486 | I am not the same person as I was before, yet | 我和以前不一样 |
| 487 | shedding the same people lessons in places. | 在那些地方给同样的人上课 |
| 488 | Listening to another ring of intuition. | 听另一个直觉环。 |
| 489 | When | 何时 |
| 490 | I reach this stage of summer, the sun, the heat, the flowers, they feel as familiar as my sorrow. | 我到达这个阶段的夏天,太阳,热浪,花朵,它们感觉和我的悲伤一样熟悉. |
| 491 | The pink and yellow blooms greeting me at yet another chapter of my life. | 粉黄色的花朵在我生命的另一章迎接我 |
| 492 | Both of us a little bit older, one infinitely wiser. | 我们俩都年纪大一点 更聪明一点 |
| 493 | I carry the weather of my emotions inside, | 我带着我的情绪的天气在里面, |
| 494 | and the plants remain outside as a neutral, reoccurring, loyal presence. | 植物在外是中立的 反复出现的 忠诚的 |
| 495 | They are not malicious | 他们不是恶意的 |
| 496 | nor mocking. | 也不要嘲笑别人。 |
| 497 | They're petals simply remaining a mirror to all that I am capable of, and all that | 它们是花瓣,只是保持一面镜子 我有能力的一切,和这一切 |
| 498 | I must shed. | 我必须离开。 |
| 499 | That was my diary entry, and I think this gives more context to Heartbroken in the | 那是我日记的条目 我觉得这能让心碎在 |
| 500 | Middle of June, one of my favorite poems I've ever written. | 六月中旬,我最喜欢的诗之一 我曾经写过。 |
| 501 | I would really, I would love for you to | 我真的很希望你能来 |
| 502 | listen to it on my spoken word album after this video. | 听听这段视频之后我讲的单词专辑 |
| 503 | I'd love for you to join the Patreon and | 我希望你能加入帕特里昂家族 |
| 504 | watch the video and listen to it. | 观看视频并听. |
| 505 | It's a piece of art that means a lot to me, and it really sums up | 这是一件对我很重要的艺术品, 它真的总结 |
| 506 | everything we've just talked about here today. | 我们今天刚刚谈的一切 |
| 507 | Life is full of goodbyes, of changes, of decisions. | 生活充满了告别,变化,决定. |
| 508 | If there's a version of ourselves that we're wishing to be, it does mean shedding things. | 如果有我们所希望的版本, 那确实意味着抛锚。 |
| 509 | It | 这个 |
| 510 | does mean leaving places, people, and things behind, and that doesn't mean you don't cherish them. | 这不意味着你不珍惜他们 |
| 511 | And what you've become, it takes courage to grow, and it's organically happening right outside the | 你变成什么, 需要勇气成长, 它的有机发生 就在外面 |
| 512 | door, in nature, all the time. | 门,在自然界,所有的时间。 |
| 513 | If there is a decision that you're teetering on, that you know | 如果你在做决定 你知道 |
| 514 | would change your life, and you're afraid, and you don't know whether or not you want to do it, and | 你会改变你的生活, 你害怕, 你不知道你是否想要这样做, |
| 515 | you'd rather stay safe and comfortable, but when you do, you come to the same conclusion over and | 你宁愿保持安全 舒适, 但当你这样做, 你得出同样的结论 |
| 516 | over again, take this as your sign to do it. | 再来一次,把这个当作你的标志 |
| 517 | I'm doing it. | 我这样做。 |
| 518 | I'm so scared, guys. | 我很害怕,伙计们。 |
| 519 | I'm so scared to | 我吓坏了 |
| 520 | move. | 移动。 |
| 521 | I've never moved away from home before. | 我从未离开过家 |
| 522 | This is a big deal, but I'm gonna do it, because even | 这事很重要,但我要这么做,因为... |
| 523 | though I've been scared of it for so long, I've wanted it for so long. | 虽然我一直害怕它 这么久,我一直想要它。 |
| 524 | We can do it. | 我们可以做到这一点。 |
| 525 | We can take | 我们可以走 |
| 526 | the scary steps. | 可怕的步骤。 |
| 527 | We can say the sad goodbyes, and we can accept all of it, that the goodbyes must | 我们可以说悲伤的再见, 我们可以接受这一切, 告别必须 |
| 528 | happen in order to say hello to a new version of ourselves. | 为了向新版本的我们问好 |
| 529 | We can cherish these things and decide | 我们可以珍惜这些东西并决定 |
| 530 | to grow from them. | 从他们那里长大。 |
| 531 | It's okay to have outgrown an environment, a relationship, a version of yourself. | 拥有超越环境,关系,自我的版本,是正常的. |
| 532 | It's okay to want to know more about yourself, and I'm somebody who's so afraid of change, | 想知道更多关于你自己的事没关系 而我是害怕改变的人 |
| 533 | yet when I do push myself out of my comfort zone, I'm exhilarated by things that I learn | 但当我把自己从舒适区推出去时 我对学到的东西感到兴奋 |
| 534 | and the version of me that comes out on the other end. | 还有另一端出现的我 |
| 535 | It's what life is about, you know? | 这就是生命的意义,你知道吗? |
| 536 | Comfort and stability, it's a beautiful thing, and I wish that for all of us, for that safety, | 舒适和稳定,这是一件美好的事情, 我希望大家,为了安全, |
| 537 | that security, but if you have the privilege to apply for something that would take you to a | 但是如果你有特权 申请一些会带你们去 |
| 538 | different environment, a different place, you've always wondered about doing something, maybe it's | 不同的环境 不同的地方 你总是在想做点什么 也许 |
| 539 | small as taking a class to learn a new skill, I don't know, but if you have that inkling in the | 有点像上个班来学习新技能, 我不知道,但如果你有这种墨水 |
| 540 | back of your mind, take this step with me, take the risk, make the leap, trust that you are | 回心转意,跟我走一步,冒险,跳跃,相信你是 |
| 541 | undergoing transformation and that you can spread your wings, even if you feel damaged or you're | 正在经历转变,你可以展翅, 即使你感到受损或你正在 |
| 542 | afraid of the past you've come from and how are you going to break out of it. | 害怕你来自过去 害怕你如何摆脱过去 |
| 543 | If you don't feel | 如果你感觉不到 |
| 544 | that confidence yet, it will come. | 那种信心还来得及 |
| 545 | The more we push ourselves to do these things and just have | 我们越是逼自己做这些事情,而只是有 |
| 546 | some blind faith, even when you don't feel ready, like that butterfly, it was trying, it didn't feel | 一些盲目的信仰, 即使你感觉没有准备好, 就像蝴蝶, 它在尝试,它没有感觉 |
| 547 | ready, it had its little wing and it needed some support from us, but it's okay now, you know? | 准备,它有它的小翅膀, 它需要我们的一些支持, 但现在它没事了,你知道吗? |
| 548 | It | 这个 |
| 549 | had to be kind of moved around and pushed a little to go take flight. | 不得不移动 和推一点点去飞行。 |
| 550 | We can take flight, guys. | 我们可以搭飞机,伙计们。 |
| 551 | We can take the flight, we can make it happen. | 我们可以搭飞机,可以让它实现 |
| 552 | Your wings are growing, even if you don't see, | 你的翅膀在增长 即使你看不到 |
| 553 | even if you're not finding satisfaction in all the change right now, it's undergoing, | 即使你现在没有找到满意的 改变,它正在进行中, |
| 554 | it's happening, you're transforming, whether you like it or not, but even if we're scared and we | 它的发生,你正在改变, 不管你喜欢与否, 但即使我们害怕,我们 |
| 555 | don't know what's next, we can take the leap, we can spread our wings, and I believe in us, | 不知道接下来会怎样,我们可以跳跃,可以展翅,我相信我们 |
| 556 | and I know that we can fly, and that's what I'll be doing as you watch this video. | 我知道我们可以飞, 这就是我会做的 当你看这个视频。 |
| 557 | I will be flying | 我会飞的 |
| 558 | across the ocean to a new place, to a new home, and I'm just so grateful, you guys. | 跨海到一个新的地方,一个新的家, 我只是非常感激你们。 |
| 559 | I'm so grateful | 非常感谢 |
| 560 | for the community that I've formed on here. | 我在这里组建的社区。 |
| 561 | I'm so grateful that you've had this conversation with | 我很感激你和我们谈过这些 |
| 562 | me today. | 我今为我. |
| 563 | No matter how tumultuous or messy it looks, we're all growing. | 不管它看起来多混乱,我们都在成长 |
| 564 | We are all on this | 我们都在做这个 |
| 565 | journey together, and I feel that more than I ever have, and I'm carrying you guys with me in my heart | 一起旅行,我感觉 比我曾经有, 我背着你们 与我在我的心脏 |
| 566 | and my camera as I go through this journey, and I'm so excited to update you where I'm at next. | 和我的相机,当我走这趟旅程, 我非常兴奋地更新你 我在哪里,我下一个。 |
| 567 | Yeah, thank you for being here. | 是的 谢谢你能来 |
| 568 | Through all the seasons, the stages, we're all metamorphosizing | 在所有的季节,阶段, 我们都在变形 |
| 569 | and changing as we speak, and it is scary, but it is also so exciting. | 我们说话时正在改变,这很可怕,但也令人兴奋。 |
| 570 | If you'd like this whole | 如果你愿意的话 |
| 571 | message embodied into one singular thing that you can listen to, listen to Heartbroken in the middle | 信息包含在一个独特的东西 你可以听, 听心碎在中间 |
| 572 | of June. | 六月节 |
| 573 | It holds a lot of meaning that you guys now know about, so wherever you are, whatever you're | 这有很多意义 你们现在知道, 所以无论你在哪里,无论你是什么 |
| 574 | doing, I hope you're having a beautiful morning, evening, afternoon, and I can't wait to talk to | 我希望你有一个美丽的早上,晚上,下午, 我迫不及待地想和 |
| 575 | you again very, very soon. | 又来了,很快 |
| 576 | Bye! | 再见! |
| 577 | See you across the pond. | 过塘见. |
| 578 | See you again very, very soon. | 很快再见 |
| 579 | Bye! | 再见! |
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