全英无字幕|【Brooke Cormier Vlog】私人独
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| 0:10 | Hi, and welcome to this video. | 欢迎收看这段录像 |
| 0:13 | I am currently on a writing retreat. | 我目前正在写作务虚会。 |
| 0:16 | If you watched my last video, you know that that was something that I wanted to do this month is to take some time away and basically reflect on the last 10 years of being a full-time artist and just writing, writing down everything that I feel that I hav | 如果你看了我最后的视频, 你知道,这就是我本月想做的事情 是花一些时间 基本上反思过去10年的全职艺术家 和写作, 写下所有我觉得我学到的东西, |
| 0:36 | the challenges I have overcome to kind of how I got here. | 我所克服的挑战 有点我是如何来到这里的。 |
| 0:41 | How did I get here? | 我怎么来的? |
| 0:43 | And the purpose of doing this is to try to create some more helpful and valuable resources for people who want to kind of follow the same path that I did and have the same kind of career that I do. | 这样做的目的是为了创造一些更有用和有价值的资源, 给那些想走和我一样的道路的人, 并且有和我一样的职业。 |
| 0:58 | As I mentioned in my last video, this has been a goal of mine for a very long time, but I just have not gotten around to doing it because I have struggled a lot with imposter syndrome, something that I think that a lot of artists go through in kind of eve | 正如我在上段视频中所提到的,这已经是我的一个目标 很久了,但我还没有来得及做到这一点, 因为我已经挣扎了很多 冒牌综合症, |
| 1:18 | stage of their career. | 他们职业生涯的阶段。 |
| 1:19 | And I also struggled with this at the beginning with my artwork. | 一开始我还用我的作品来挣扎。 |
| 1:25 | And now when it comes to actually making, you know, educational stiff about art, I'm just like filled with all of these feelings of doubt if I have the authority to be sharing my knowledge and teaching other people. | 而现在,在实际上,你知道,关于艺术的教育僵化, 我就像充满了所有这些怀疑的感觉, 如果我有权力分享我的知识 并教别人。 |
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| 1 | Hi, and welcome to this video. | 欢迎收看这段录像 |
| 2 | I am currently on a writing retreat. | 我目前正在写作务虚会。 |
| 3 | If you watched my last video, you know that that was something that I wanted to do this month is to take some time away and basically reflect on the last 10 years of being a full-time artist and just writing, writing down everything that I feel that I hav | 如果你看了我最后的视频, 你知道,这就是我本月想做的事情 是花一些时间 基本上反思过去10年的全职艺术家 和写作, 写下所有我觉得我学到的东西, |
| 4 | the challenges I have overcome to kind of how I got here. | 我所克服的挑战 有点我是如何来到这里的。 |
| 5 | How did I get here? | 我怎么来的? |
| 6 | And the purpose of doing this is to try to create some more helpful and valuable resources for people who want to kind of follow the same path that I did and have the same kind of career that I do. | 这样做的目的是为了创造一些更有用和有价值的资源, 给那些想走和我一样的道路的人, 并且有和我一样的职业。 |
| 7 | As I mentioned in my last video, this has been a goal of mine for a very long time, but I just have not gotten around to doing it because I have struggled a lot with imposter syndrome, something that I think that a lot of artists go through in kind of eve | 正如我在上段视频中所提到的,这已经是我的一个目标 很久了,但我还没有来得及做到这一点, 因为我已经挣扎了很多 冒牌综合症, |
| 8 | stage of their career. | 他们职业生涯的阶段。 |
| 9 | And I also struggled with this at the beginning with my artwork. | 一开始我还用我的作品来挣扎。 |
| 10 | And now when it comes to actually making, you know, educational stiff about art, I'm just like filled with all of these feelings of doubt if I have the authority to be sharing my knowledge and teaching other people. | 而现在,在实际上,你知道,关于艺术的教育僵化, 我就像充满了所有这些怀疑的感觉, 如果我有权力分享我的知识 并教别人。 |
| 11 | I just feel like I have this little devil on my shoulder that's just whispering all these poisonous ideas in my mind, like what gives you the right to be teaching people things when you barely know what you're doing half the time? | 我只是觉得我肩上有个小魔鬼 在我的脑海中轻声地说出这些有毒的想法 就像是什么让你有权教别人的东西 当你几乎不知道自己在做什么的时候 |
| 12 | So another goal of mine for this weekend is to just try to silence that little devil and to just move past all of this imposter syndrome and perfectionism and to just do this thing that I have been procrastinating for so long. | 所以我这个周末的另一个目标 就是试着让那个小恶魔安静下来 摆脱这个冒名顶替的 综合症和完美主义 做我拖延了这么久的事 |
| 13 | And I'm just working on feeling confident in the things that I actually have accomplished so far and the evidence that I have helped people, you know, through my YouTube channel and stuff, right? | 我只是在努力对目前为止我所完成的事情 以及我通过YouTube频道 帮助人们的证据感到自信,对吧? |
| 14 | Well, anyways, I hope that wherever you are, you can make yourself a nice warm beverage and we can enjoy this next little while together. | 好吧,无论如何,我希望,无论你在哪里, 你可以给自己做一个很好的热饮料 我们可以享受这 接下来的一点点在一起。 |
| 15 | And I'm also looking forward to just getting some fresh mountain air in my lungs this week so we can both look forward to some beautiful scenery, cozy vibes and overcoming life's challenges. | 我也很期待这个星期能有新鲜的山气 来吸引我的肺部 这样我们就能期待一些美丽的风景 舒适的氛围 以及克服生活的挑战 |
| 16 | I'll see you soon. | 后见. |
| 17 | As I prepare to start writing, let's talk about imposter syndrome. | 在我开始写作的时候 让我们谈谈冒牌货综合症 |
| 18 | If you've never heard this term before, it's basically the internal experience of doubting your abilities. | 如果你以前从未听说过这个术语,这基本上是怀疑你能力的内部经历. |
| 19 | It can affect anyone and it's more common than you would think. | 它会影响任何人 而且它比你想象的更常见。 |
| 20 | And that's kind of why I wanted to talk about it because I think we've all experienced it at some point in our life and though it feels deeply personal, it's important and also reassuring to know that we're not alone in our experience. | 这就是为什么我想谈论它, 因为我认为我们都经历过它 在我们生活中的某个阶段, 虽然它感到深刻的私人性, 这很重要, 也令人欣慰的是,我们知道 我们不是孤独的。 |
| 21 | Imposter syndrome can manifest itself in different ways. | 冒牌综合征可以以不同的方式表现出来. |
| 22 | For me, it's using perfectionism and procrastination as coping mechanisms for my fear of failure. | 对我来说,它用完美主义和拖延作为应对机制来对付我对失败的恐惧. |
| 23 | I often put way more time and effort than necessary into any project I do because of the unattainable standards I set for myself. | 我经常将更多的时间和精力投入任何我从事的项目,因为我为自己制定了无法达到的标准。 |
| 24 | And then I end up feeling guilty for spending so much time on one thing when I could be working on something else that would be more productive and beneficial for my career. | 最后,我感到内疚 花了这么多时间 在一个事情上,我可以 工作其他的东西, 将会更有成效 和有益的我的职业生涯。 |
| 25 | I just often find myself being really self-critical of everything I'm doing and I think it comes from my desire for everything to be perfect. | 我只是经常发现自己 真正自我批评 我所做的一切, 我认为它来自我的渴望 一切是完美的。 |
| 26 | And because I want everything I create to be perfect, I also tend to procrastinate. | 因为我希望我创造的一切完美, 我也倾向于拖延。 |
| 27 | Sometimes it's in the form of over-preparing for something instead of actually doing the thing, and sometimes it's just pushing projects more and more into the future because if I don't start them, I can't fail, right? | 有时它的形式是过度准备某事而不是实际做,有时它只是把项目推向未来,因为如果我不启动它们,我就不能失败,对吧? |
| 28 | And that's what I've been doing with this project. | 这就是我一直在做的这个项目。 |
| 29 | I've wanted to make an online course for years, but I've kept putting it off because I'm scared. | 多年来我一直想上在线课程,但因为害怕,我一直拖延下去. |
| 30 | I'm scared that it's not going to be good enough and I'm scared that people are going to think that I'm a fraud. | 我害怕这还不够好 我害怕人们会认为我是个骗子 |
| 31 | I get this feeling a lot that everybody thinks I know a lot more than I actually do. | 我有一种感觉 每个人都认为我知道的比我想象的要多 |
| 32 | So when it comes to sharing my knowledge, it can be a bit anxiety-inducing. | 因此,在分享我的知识时, 可能会引起一些焦虑。 |
| 33 | Because I also find that it's one thing for me to post things on YouTube for free because if somebody isn't finding value in what I'm sharing, it's no big deal, they can just click away. | 因为我也发现免费在YouTube上发布是一回事 因为如果有人找不到我分享的价值 那没什么大不了的,他们可以直接点击。 |
| 34 | But it's a much more scarier thing when you're creating something and then asking for money in return. | 但当你们创造东西 然后要求钱来回报时,这更加可怕。 |
| 35 | It really cranks up the pressure and I think that that's why I've been putting this off for so long. | 它真的激发了压力 我想这就是为什么我 一直拖了这么久。 |
| 36 | I just want to make sure that whatever knowledge I share will provide as much value as possible and then people will be willing and happy to invest in it. | 我只想确保我分享的任何知识都尽可能提供价值,然后人们愿意并乐于投资。 |
| 37 | But I also have to not let my perfectionism get in the way or else I will never finish it. | 但我也不必让我的完美主义妨碍我 否则我永远不会完成它。 |
| 38 | I also have the issue of comparing myself to the success of others, which is also a cause of imposter syndrome. | 我也有把自己与他人的成功相比较的问题,这也是冒牌货综合症的一个原因. |
| 39 | I have the privilege of being surrounded by a lot of amazing artists at my studio. | 我有幸被我工作室里很多惊人的艺术家包围. |
| 40 | It's a very inspiring place to be and I'm honestly so fortunate. | 这是一个非常鼓舞人心的地方,我真幸运。 |
| 41 | But sometimes I find myself comparing my artistic output to those of my friends and feeling kind of shitty about it. | 但有时我发现自己比较我的艺术产出 和我的朋友的作品, 觉得有点低劣。 |
| 42 | I've got so many other projects going on that don't involve painting and I find myself feeling less and less like an artist. | 我还有很多其他项目在进行, 不涉及绘画, 我觉得自己越来越不像一个艺术家。 |
| 43 | And then for a project like this, which is one of my non-painting projects, I'm still comparing myself. | 而对于这样的项目,这个是我的非绘画项目之一,我仍在比较自己. |
| 44 | But to all the other artists out there who have already put out 10 or 20 or 100 courses that are super successful | 但对于已经推出10、20或100门 超级成功的课程的其他艺术家来说 |
| 45 | and I'm over here thinking like how the hell did they do that? | 我在这里想 他们是怎么做到的? |
| 46 | Where did they get all their knowledge from and is mine going to be good enough to compete? | 他们从哪里得到所有的知识 我的能胜任竞争吗? |
| 47 | So yeah, imposter syndrome sucks. | 是啊,冒牌货综合症很烂。 |
| 48 | But I am determined to put a stop to it this week or at least to temporarily silence it so that I can make the most out of my writing retreat. | 但是,我决心本周停止,或至少暂时停止,这样我才能从写作的退步中取得最大的进展。 |
| 49 | And I read that one of the ways that I can do this is by reflecting on how far I've come, | 我读到一个方法 我可以做到这一点 通过反思我走了多远, |
| 50 | which actually lines up pretty well with my goals for this week because that was kind of exactly what I was planning on doing. | 这周我的目标非常一致 因为这正是我打算做的 |
| 51 | But speaking of reading, I wanted to share with you some of the art books that I brought along with me. | 但是说到阅读,我想和大家分享一些我带来的艺术书籍. |
| 52 | Also, squeaky bad, I'm sorry about that. | 还有,很糟,我很抱歉。 |
| 53 | I brought these painting books so I can feel like a painter again. | 我带来了这些绘画书籍,这样我才能再次感觉自己像个画家. |
| 54 | And this one I have been trying to get through for a long time. | 而这个我一直试图通过 很长时间。 |
| 55 | It's honestly taking me months and months of reading on and off, but I'm almost there. | 老实说,我花了好几个月的阅读和阅读, 但我几乎在那里。 |
| 56 | I have like 10 pages left. | 我还有十页 |
| 57 | It is called Color and Light, a guide for the realist painter by James Gurney. | 它被称作"色彩与光明"(Color and Light),詹姆斯·古尔尼为现实主义画家的指南. |
| 58 | And I thought maybe we could do like a little premature book review. | 我想也许我们可以做点不成熟的书评。 |
| 59 | There is a lot of information in this book, and James Gurney has just a wealth of knowledge when it comes to painting. | 这本书有许多信息,詹姆斯·古尔尼在绘画方面只有丰富的知识. |
| 60 | He's a phenomenal painter, especially when you realize that the work that he's doing is basically like from his imagination. | 他是一个惊人的画家, 特别是当你意识到 他正在做的作品基本上是 从他的想象。 |
| 61 | And he is able to render these images in such amazing detail. | 他能够用如此惊人的细节制作这些图像。 |
| 62 | So this is a book that I would highly recommend for somebody who paints fantasy or who just doesn't want to paint with a reference photo. | 我非常推荐这本书 给那些画幻想或不想用参考照片画的人。 |
| 63 | I did find this book to be very technical, and there is not anything wrong with that. | 我确实觉得这本书很技术,没有问题。 |
| 64 | But it did make my brain a little achy at times. | 但它确实让我的大脑有时有点不舒服。 |
| 65 | And I think that that's probably why it took me so long to finish. | 我想这就是为什么我花了这么长时间才结束。 |
| 66 | I just found myself having to consult the glossary in the back because I would forget what terms meant. | 我只是发现自己不得不在后面查阅词汇表,因为我会忘记术语的含义。 |
| 67 | And I just found myself having to reread a bunch of stuff over and over to really let things sink in. | 我只是发现自己不得不重读 一堆东西 一遍又一遍地让事情沉下去。 |
| 68 | And I don't know, sometimes I found that he was kind of using like unnecessarily complex language to explain things, which was kind of frustrating for me. | 我不知道,有时我发现 他用一些不必要的复杂语言来解释事情, 这让我很沮丧。 |
| 69 | But then again, maybe I'm just dumb. | 再说一次,也许我只是哑巴 |
| 70 | I do think I will be consulting this book again in the future, though. | 我想将来我还会再参考这本书 |
| 71 | And what's nice is that it is divided neatly into chapters. | 不错的是,它被完美地分成几章。 |
| 72 | So it's easy to just skip to the part that you may be having trouble with or need more information about. | 所以很容易跳到 你可能遇到麻烦或需要更多信息的部分。 |
| 73 | That's what I intend to do. | 这就是我打算做的。 |
| 74 | And now I am very excited to start this book. | 现在我非常兴奋地开始这本书。 |
| 75 | Oh, my God, it's so heavy. | 天啊,这太重了 |
| 76 | It is called Alaprima number two, Everything I Know About Painting and More by Richard Schmidt. | 被理查德·施密特称为阿拉普里玛二号,"关于绘画和更多我所知的一切". |
| 77 | It is the expanded edition. | 这是扩充版。 |
| 78 | This is the most expensive book I've ever purchased in my life. | 这是我这辈子买的最贵的书了 |
| 79 | It was over 200 Canadian dollars. | 这是超过200加元。 |
| 80 | And Mamma Mia, I wanted it for a very long time. | 和妈妈米娅, 我想要它很长一段时间。 |
| 81 | And so last year for my birthday, I gifted it to myself. | 去年我的生日,我送给自己 |
| 82 | And also, it's a business expense. | 而且,这是一笔商业开支。 |
| 83 | So like, but anyways, a little background information. | 所以,但无论如何, 一点点背景资料。 |
| 84 | I came across the work of Mark Bowidge's quite a while back and just fell in love with his landscape paintings. | 我看见了马克·博维奇的作品 很久之前,刚爱上了他的风景画。 |
| 85 | I think he's a phenomenal painter and would love to be able to paint like him. | 我觉得他是个了不起的画家 很想像他那样画画 |
| 86 | And then after doing a little bit of research, I found out that he was a student or and very much inspired by, ding, ding, ding, Richard Schmidt. | 在做了一点研究后,我发现他是一个学生,或者非常受,叮,叮,叮,理查德·施密特的启发. |
| 87 | So when I discovered that this book existed with the promise of teaching me how to paint like Mark Bowidge's and Richard Schmidt, | 当我发现这本书存在时 承诺教我如何画像马克·博维奇和理查德·施密特 |
| 88 | I was like, add to cart, baby, put that in the library. | 我当时想,在推车,宝贝, 把它放在图书馆。 |
| 89 | So I'm very, very excited to give this one a go. | 所以我非常,非常兴奋地给这个机会。 |
| 90 | Honestly, it is not a good traveling book because it's so heavy and big. | 老实说,它不是一本好旅行的书,因为它是如此沉重和大。 |
| 91 | I should have honestly left it at home and just started reading it next week instead of this week. | 我本该把它留在家里 然后下周开始读 而不是本周 |
| 92 | But anyway, I'm thinking it might be a nice way to just like clear my mind before bed a little bit and prevent me from doom scrolling during my writing retreat because I want this to be a wholesome experience. | 但无论如何,我想这可能是一个很好的方式, 就像是在睡觉前让我清醒一点 并阻止我在写作的退场中卷卷起末日, 因为我希望这是一个很好的体验。 |
| 93 | Maybe I'll do a video in the future of like a more in-depth book review of the art books that I'm reading. | 也许我会做一个视频 在未来像一个更深入的书评 我读的艺术书籍。 |
| 94 | I think that that could be fun. | 我认为那会很有趣。 |
| 95 | Let me know in the comments if you wish to do that or if you don't wish that I do that. | 如果你想这样做,或不希望我这样做,请在评论中告诉我。 |
| 96 | Anyway, I'm going to get a good night rest now and hopefully get some good writing done tomorrow. | 总之,我现在要好好休息了 希望明天能写好文章 |
| 97 | Well, well, well, here we are. | 好了,好了,好了,我们到了。 |
| 98 | It's already day five of my writing retreat. | 已经是我写作的五天了 |
| 99 | And to be honest, I have been feeling a bit disappointed with my progress so far. | 老实说,我对我迄今的进展感到有些失望。 |
| 100 | I feel like my intention coming into this trip was we're going to write an entire course in a week. | 我觉得这次旅行的意向是 我们一周内要写一整个课程 |
| 101 | It's going to just flow out of me and everything is going to be beautiful and amazing. | 它会只是流出 我和一切都会 美丽和惊人。 |
| 102 | And it hasn't been in the slightest. | 而且一点也没有 |
| 103 | Actually, I've just been very confused this whole time. | 其实,我一直很困惑 |
| 104 | My thoughts have been completely disorganized and I've just been having a hard time. | 我的思绪已经完全混乱了, 我只是经历了一个艰难的时期。 |
| 105 | And I've come to the realization that it can be very difficult to get into a flow state. | 我意识到进入流动状态可能非常困难。 |
| 106 | And it's something that I think you can't necessarily force. | 我认为你不一定能强迫我 |
| 107 | That being said, as of this morning, I am starting to feel like I'm actually taking strides and I'm feeling a little bit more motivated. | 说到这个,从今天上午开始, 我开始感觉自己正在步入正轨, 我感到有点更积极。 |
| 108 | I feel like I have more direction now after kind of taking the last couple of days to, I guess, clear my mind a little bit. | 我觉得现在我有了更多的方向 过了最后几天,我想,让我清醒一点。 |
| 109 | And things do feel like they're flowing a lot more. | 事情确实感觉它们流动得更多。 |
| 110 | So I'm certainly going to be riding that wave for as long as I can. | 所以,我肯定会骑那波 尽可能长的时间。 |
| 111 | I know I only have two days left of being here and I can beat myself up for not making much progress these past five days. | 我知道我只有两天的时间在这里了,我可以打自己,因为过去五天没有取得多大进展。 |
| 112 | But at least now on day five, I have actually found something, something that I can work with. | 但至少现在第5天,我确实找到了一些东西, 一些我可以合作的东西。 |
| 113 | And I've found that even having a little bit of a breakthrough has done a lot for my confidence. | 而且我发现,即使有一点点的突破,也为我的信心做了很多工作. |
| 114 | Like now that I kind of have like an outline, more or less, writing has become so much easier and I don't feel so doubtful of what I am writing down. | 就像现在我有点喜欢提纲, 或多或少,写作变得容易得多了, 我不这么怀疑我写的东西。 |
| 115 | So that's been great. | 所以这是伟大的。 |
| 116 | Maybe sometimes it just takes a little win, just a tiny little win to propel you forward. | 也许有时候它只是需要一点点的胜利, 只是一点点的胜利来推动你前进。 |
| 117 | So, yeah, I'm going to try and propel myself as far as I can these next couple of days. | 所以,是的,我要去尝试 驱动自己 尽可能地在接下来的几天。 |
| 118 | And in the meantime, it is really nice outside. | 同时,外面也不错 |
| 119 | So I think I'm going to go for a walk, make myself a nice lunch and then get back to it. | 所以我想我要去散步, 给自己做一个很好的午餐 然后回到它。 |
| 120 | It may seem like everyone else has their shit together and knows exactly what they're doing, but more often than not, they're having the same doubts as you. | 似乎每个人都有 自己的狗屎在一起 并确切知道 他们在做什么, 但更经常, 他们有同样的怀疑 和你。 |
| 121 | Here on the internet, what you're seeing is mostly people's highlight reels. | 在互联网上,你看到的主要是人们的亮点。 |
| 122 | And I'm guilty of it too. | 则我亦有罪. |
| 123 | I'm not filming when my self-esteem is at an all-time low or when I'm feeling depressed or super bloated. | 当自尊处于历史低谷时,或者当感到沮丧或超级膨胀时,我不会拍摄. |
| 124 | I try to make my life look dreamy. | 我试图使我的生活看起来梦幻般。 |
| 125 | The evidence is here in the scenery of this video. | 证据就在这段录像里 |
| 126 | But we can't compare our behind-the-scenes doubts and failures to each other's highlight reels. | 但我们不能把我们的幕后怀疑和失败与对方的亮点比喻. |
| 127 | It's just not realistic. | 这不现实 |
| 128 | We have to remind ourselves that everyone has struggles and that going through them is what makes our achievements something to be proud of and not something to feel illegitimate about. | 我们必须提醒自己,每个人都有斗争,经历这些斗争使我们的成就成为值得骄傲的东西,而不是感到非法的东西。 |
| 129 | It may feel like no matter what you accomplish, there's always someone ahead of you. | 无论你做什么 都总有人在你前面 |
| 130 | But you can't let that diminish the work that you've put in that brought you to where you are today. | 但你不能让这减少你投入的工作 把你带到今天的位置 |
| 131 | Your effort and success is never an accident. | 你的努力和成功绝不是偶然的。 |
| 132 | It's earned. | 其为所得. |
| 133 | And this is something that I intend to remind myself of more often. | 我打算经常提醒自己这一点。 |
| 134 | Even though I didn't accomplish as much as I wanted to this week on my writing retreat, | 虽然我本周的写作务虚会没有完成那么多 |
| 135 | and even though there are people out there who are way more talented and successful than me, | 虽然外面有人比我更有才华和成功 |
| 136 | I'm still making progress and taking baby steps is better than taking no steps at all. | 我还在进步 采取婴儿步骤总比不采取任何步骤好 |
| 137 | Thank you for watching! | 谢谢你的观看! |
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